Oh yea, another week of BMT is over, finally halfway there. I dont know whether i love this week better than the previous few weeks or not. One thing definitely true is my mentality changed a lot in this one week. During the last few weeks, im going thru a decision making phase and it made me really confused and troubled, made me feel like having someone there to guide me thru the dark. But ultimately, i realised that im the decision maker and i decide for myself. Although i havent come to a complete decision, meaning that i might still changed it afterward, but i decided that for now, i just decide to SAF (any army people will understand wad this mean) and continue with studying like a normal student, enjoying my freedom to the very last bit. Wherever i end up in, whatever tough training they tossed at me i shall just grit my teeth and endure. Since im alr stuck with NS and a pes A/B, shall just make the best out of it and experience as much things as possible and train myself up. And i realised the hope of joining navy after BMT to save myself from all these shit is just pulling my mood and morale down and giving myself a difficult time in BMT.
Hahaz,saw the commandos and their cool weapons and for a moment, i thought, i want to be a commando =p It's rather cool to play with those weapons but nevertheless i still prefer my freedom over anything else.
Anyway, i couldn't say serving NS is all that bad, though i only been thru this for a while, i come to many conclusion and felt that after going thru everything, i will come out physically and mentally stronger. Furthermore, being so deprived of everything in there just make you appreciate every lil thing out there, may it be a civilian life, something as simple as choosing wad you eat, where you want to go, or even be living peacefully. CIVILIAN LIFE ROX.
Last but no least, went to the new PA and had dance practice, never expected laoshi is going and in the end, did all the training and erm, the tiredness incurred is > two insanely speedy AGR, 1 30-60 1 SOC in SBO with everything in it and a 3l water bag plus lot of PT. But really glad that i got to dance again >.<
Anyway, really thankful to those who sms-ed me while im in camp, it was really sweet and revitalizing to see them after a long day of practice. And really glad because i have frens that really care =)
