Tried dozen of sentences to start this off but no words truly describe my mood right now. I'm just so freaking tired, tired of waiting, tired of putting everything on hold, tired of living each day waiting for an answer to the promise. It will be better that such a promising looking promise was never made in the first place. Can you imagine living everyday just to find that today was wasted, to realise that tmr might be foregone, to find out that wad you have been anticipating for the past one year is just a delusion. It might be easy for anyone to say stuff like continue your daily stuff, don't let it affect you, or even worse bullshit when people don't understand anything and shoot nonsense like it was nothing. It was almost everything to me for the past few months, a motivation that kept me going. But now, it's looking bleaker and bleaker, can i just have a simple yes or no? I'm physically and mentally worn out, who can i lean on when i feel tired, who can i seek answer when i need one and who will be there to guide me through the darkness?Through the darkest of night always comes dawn, but can i survive thru this darkness?
