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2010-05-18T02:11:00.002+08:00

Dear blog, after abandoning you for so long, i'm finally back with a megaton of unhappiness waiting to be poured out.

It has been a long way since my enlistment to SAF and looking back at the past 1 year, i do not know whether to hate or love this organisation.

My pride has been hurt on the day i received the posting and i failed to get to OCS. Although i'm a non- believer, i do believe that fate has a funny way of grooming us, teaching us and leading us to our destination. In the past 1 year, I have learnt to swallow my pride, learned to let go of the past and face the present, worked with the the most ridiculous superior and meet all kind of people, from all kind of background, be it true blue hokkien beng, wayang king, backstabbers, wimps, retards or scholars. Without an appointment or a rank, I feel at ease and do not see the need to strict-en myself and enable myself to talk to them as an equal and truly understand them. Sometimes you wonder why people do this do that but have you ever thought that not everyone thinks alike. What we seems to be common sense, right or even necessary may seems to be nonsense to some other people cause their mentality, their objective in life, their priority is entirely different.

Always excelling in studies ever since I was a kid, i see myself superior to those in neighborhood school, ITE or dropouts. But my mentality totally changed after entering army, there's no big difference between me and them.

Next is the YOG, i'm awfully disappointed when my ridiculous superior went all the way out just to stop me from participating, ridicule and insulted me, even gave me extra for she think i bear a grudge against her for this matter when i have done nothing to her at all. What depressed me even more is that trying your best to try to bring success to the show, to bring pride to your country was seen as a 'threat' to national security. Hey, get a life, we are all sitting in the office doing practically nothing everyday and an attempt to increase our 'GDP' was insulted?

Managed to get over the down period and was really happy to at least get a chance to participate in this year's NDP, at least i learnt to counter all ridiculous opposition by anticipating all the noteworthy and possible de-butt i will face.

Next thing is my father (yes, i know AGAIN)

In just a short span of 1 year, he had spent $150k on some so called "nu-er" in china and yet he is unwilling to fork out $24k over 4 years for my university and another sum for my brother to pursue a tertiary course of his preference and he even has the gut to ask my brother to save his money into a bank account belong to him (my dad)

Ever since young, when everyone talked about going overseas with their family be it korea, japan or european countries, I can only sit at my lonely corner because all i know about these places are what i saw form picture, read from books or internet.

I have decided and will not go back on my words, once i graduated and start having a job on my own, my dad is not going to get a single cent, even if one day he has to resort to begging on the street, i will not shed a single tear for him. Harsh it may seems but having a dad like that is the biggest insult to my entire life. Just speaking about him made me feel disgusted =(

Last but not least, there's something i could have told everyone earlier but i do not want to cause worries. One week prior to aristal, on a friday, i broke my rib, the 4th one from the top on the right to be exact. I choose to keep it from everyone and just said it was a small internal injury. Everyone is working so hard, esp during the last week that i cannot bear to tell them im in no condition to dance. Luckily, the broken rib did not puncture any organs and since rib fracture are managed conservatively, it will recover by itself over some time. If you are curious how a rib fracture feels like, it hurts every time you take in a breath and it is almost impossible to exert any strength.

Guess i shall end it here, it's getting kinda late.

2010-03-21T23:32:00.003+08:00

Tried dozen of sentences to start this off but no words truly describe my mood right now. I'm just so freaking tired, tired of waiting, tired of putting everything on hold, tired of living each day waiting for an answer to the promise. It will be better that such a promising looking promise was never made in the first place. Can you imagine living everyday just to find that today was wasted, to realise that tmr might be foregone, to find out that wad you have been anticipating for the past one year is just a delusion. It might be easy for anyone to say stuff like continue your daily stuff, don't let it affect you, or even worse bullshit when people don't understand anything and shoot nonsense like it was nothing. It was almost everything to me for the past few months, a motivation that kept me going. But now, it's looking bleaker and bleaker, can i just have a simple yes or no? I'm physically and mentally worn out, who can i lean on when i feel tired, who can i seek answer when i need one and who will be there to guide me through the darkness?

Through the darkest of night always comes dawn, but can i survive thru this darkness?

2010-03-04T22:31:00.002+08:00

Just had the most disgusting nightmare i ever had. A nightmare that is a twist to my misery right now. To simplified it, while walking a newly made fren to the bus stop in a back alley, that guy bear hug me and kiss me on the lip, the lock is so tight that I cannot brush him off for an entire minute. After i brush him off, gave him one weak punch and it missed but subsequently grab his shirt and gave him 27 continuous unrestrained hard punches to his face but the only thing broken is my fist. There's not even a single on his face -.- Bystander pinned him down and the shop owner nearby called the police and try to give some advice but they are non-coherent to my current situation. Left my macbook -.- and my bag in the shop and went to police station. After that, realised i have no wallet with me and have to walk back to the shop. Managed to find the area but couldn't find the exact shop. Wander around before i saw the current NH sec 4 dancers (they have some connection to my assaulter in this nightmare.) Wondered around and saw Solo king too -.- Shi bin pop out of nowhere and the 2 of us managed to find the shop but the shop owners are not in!!! After some searching, finally able to find my stuff when i spot the charger for my macbook -.-

They often say dream is a creation of your daily life and experience, seems so true to me right now =(

It's like my life right now, all the misery we suffered are hidden in the dark, no matter how much you fight back to your assaulter, the one who will get hurt in the end will be you. Advice offered clearly shows that they don't understand the situation. Everything is a mess and help offered just get you into a bigger mess. You know a lot of people but you understand that telling them doesn't help cos they would not understand too. Those that will be there is so few and lil.

My life is like so screwed up right now. The only thing that keeps my hope high have not arrived and to be told by someone who is unaware of wad's happening but highly ranked that it might not happen just sucks even more. TO MAKE IT WORSE, a superior that always think you are trying to sabotage her, not doing work and choose to ignore compliments sent by others to thank me for my hardwork and to be told it's not my effort but my upperstudy. They just sent it this way cos it's my OA account doing the work and email -.- It's really ridiculous, preparing nominal roll for hundreds of servicemen, checking their records one by one and consolidating the amt of vaccines needed and indenting them. Making another nominal roll and prepare and send the vaccines to other camp, making all the appointment for servicemen and a guy who sit there and study for his own test was presumed to be doing more work just becos he mopped the floor. I might be i the wrong for rejecting work using words like i dont really care but wake up your god damn fucking idea, you don't need 2 pple to sit in front of one com to do one email. And the reason i looked so free is becos i consolidated my work and settle it in a go. It's all about splitting up your work. I never bothered you when i prepare all the stuff for SeaThunder ops, just merely informing you that it is done but yet to do a week worth of blood test appts, you expect me to sit down with you and give me black face when i refused. Wake up your fucking idea, the reason you need to spend so much time studying now is becos you are too retarded and screw up your A level.

And one thing i hate most about pple is. People who point at you and say you go do this without asking properly and usually it's something so simple that by the time you point your finger and convince me to do it, you could have finish it two times.

To all the screwed up people, get a life, don't be jealous just because i have more As than you. If you wake up your idea and realise wad is called efficiency, you would have gotten it too. PFFFFFFT

2010-02-16T23:40:00.003+08:00

I can't believe i got fined for drinking outside the gateway in the mrt station, where is your freaking boundary then??? CAN SMRT freaking draw a line to define the boundary and what's up with the staff attitude??? I'm being kind and nice enuff to take out my IC but without an explanation take my IC and type me a summon???

And i cannot believe i quarrel with my parents over this. There's the reason i told them they don't understand me. I mentioned it not because i want a soln, not because i want you all to give constructive comments, i mentioned it because i just wanted to whine it out. By constantly reminding me that's it's my own fault you are just fuel-ing my anger and thus i need other mode of venting out this unhappiness. SO i end u throwing my mouse, broke a table and threw a chair across the room. To people who dont know me well, just dont argue back with me when i think im right cause i wont accept any reason when i do. When im whining just let me be and give me a sympathizing nod and agreement will do or i will just get freaking pissed off.

AND SMRT, im still gonna freaking DRINK outside your gateway outside this incident because i dont see your whole freaking point. FINE, I can see the sign from my current position but you know wad? I can see the other sign at the entrance at the mama shop beside the station!!! HOLY SHIT, does that mean i cannot drink in that mama shop? How do i know your freaking big and wealthy SMRT doesn't own that shop, that tiny piece of land beside the escalator? UNLESS you DRAW A LINE and say the boundary for the no drinking rule starts here!!! The general public would just tot that the rule applies to inside the gateway since in station like boon lay, there is drink stall within the station premise!!! If you are trying to fine someone due to a misconception that SMRT you yourself created and didn't bother to try to make known, you are a F-ed up conner.

Next time i wont be so freaking nice to you staff and lackey anymore, i will mock you, make fun of you and ultimately run my way out of it. If you think you can catch me, then just try. and please police wont bother to do a face match to hunt down one single guy who drink OUTSIDE YOUR MRT STATION

Why am i typing this post??? COS I WANNA WHINE IT OFF AND LET LOOSE SOME STEAM =p

2010-01-15T00:43:00.004+08:00

To start off my 20th year as a human, I shall blog =p
Pretty much abandon and forgot about this blog ever since I completed my medic course.
To sum up my life right now, it's pointless, waste of time and degrading to human's integrity.
Just a brief summary, I'm posted to ayer rajah camp which is so near to my house that i always walk and get to book out everyday. It may be the perfect army life to people who is slogging it out in the field but reality is always far from perfection.
My medical centre is a nice cosy place with an okay amt of workload but hiding in room 6 is the pandora's box which rain terror fear and anxiety on all humanity in AYMC( Ayer rajah medical centre, dont ask me why the inital is AYMC cos i dont know too) and that would be my immediate superior which i do not wish to name and bring myself unneccessary trouble.
Okay, so wad's so bad about 'it'? EVERYTHING
To kick start on the understanding of this monster, being a medic and a very 'lao jiao', the medical knowledge contain within is negative, any tom dick harry with some knowledge would know head tilt chin lift method of opening airway is the ULTIMATE taboo when handling a patient with spinal injury but i was scolded for not doing HTCL on a demo spinal case. That basically explains its stupidity and worse still, it pick trouble like no tmr, any constructive suggestion to improve our work would be regard as total bullshit and deserve 3 extras. All the things we were instructed to do are against the medical protocol, having potential threat on safety, selfish and ultimately unneccessary. To make it worse, the pressence of bootlickers and backstabber as its minion multiplies its deadliness. (Lucky they ord-ed)
I don't see wad's fair to me who end up spending more than half a month doing outfield when all the others spent the whole month shaking leg in office. Just because i'm from 1AMB then i'm doing all of em is total bullshit. So those attached to MMI are destinied to slack?
And wad kind of bullshit it is when the conducting officer came down personally to recommend off to a guy who got thrown outfield without knowing it's outfield and overnight for 3days 2 night and not only no off were given but I was scolded severely for 'ganging' up with people from outside medical centre?
To make my outfield worse, the safety went all out to look for trouble by spending 3 hours inspecting and please oh god someone teach him there is no god damn difference between a 21m crepe bandage and 2 X 10.5m crepe bandage and a packet of safety pins are no different from a bunch of safety pins and THE N.A. is there to circle for a god damn reason. To have to act crying and depressed to get myself out of 3 extras to later get ridiculed at by the monster daily who got to know it from the retarded safety who promised the conducting he would not spell a word to the monster is simply pride crushing. To make it worse, the safety twist it into a story that I brought expired stores outfield and refused to admit my mistake it pure bullshit. Open your fucking eyes at look at the expiry date, will ya, old stores doesn't = expired store.
Now, those who admired my slack life at AYMC, are you willing to let your pride stepped on 24/7 by a creature who is so retarded that it only has 1 O level pass?
This also make me extremely disappointed in the entire organisation because it fails to remove all the incapable people who manged to get their rank by talking cock-ing all the way.
If it was a private organisation, it will be bankrupt within1 to 2 years.
And 4 to 5k pay for making NSF do its work for it? It can't even type a proper email FYI.
Why am my parents even paying tax? If i'm rich i would have long abandon and migrate...

and if any MPs stumbled across this, this is pure ranting and no names are mentioned, if people infer their way thru, it's their imagination.

RAWR, it feel so good to rant my head off. Ever since i went to this medical centre, life been pretty pointless and directionless. Feeling so ever lethargic in all situations, even when i'm in PA seems to drain my mental strength empty. Now, someone save me please...

2009-08-16T01:33:00.002+08:00

At Long Last, decided to use part of my precious book out time to blog =p
My Medic Course is almost coming to an end and all i left is a few more tests =)
Anyway, realised how useful the stuffs im taught when on the way home, saw some crowd over at a bus stop and decided to alight and take a look, realised someone have fainted and as a SAF medic to be, I offered my help.
The girl was unconscious on the AVPU scale when i first assessed her but her airway breathing and circulation was all okay except for breathing and circulation which are weak and shallow, decided to move her to SSLP position to prevent airway closing. Didn't do RBS on her since she's a gal and her fren who witnessed her fainting say she doesn't knock against anything. And gladly after moving to SSLP position for a while, she started to regain consciousness and become verbal, all indications show she's stable and is suffering from a gastrointestinal pain that's all, since other witnesses have called the ambulance, i just stayed there to complete the rest of my secondary survey =p And wad a surprise, when the ambulance arrive, one of the civil defence crew is my course mate.
Although i didn't really do much but still glad that i'm able to help and allow the load and go process to be hastened =)
Back to the medic course, combat phase is almost coming to an end and it sure is 'tiring' compared to the rest of the course. Couldn't reveal wad exactly we did but all i can say is, b4 we can carry the casualty back to collection point which is 400m away, we might well become a casualty ourselves from over exhaustion, the method is so not effective -.-

Army stuff must be boring so i cut it short
Been so free recently that i allowed my mind to wander off a lot and have been thinking about a lot of stuffs. First of all, I'm always imagining the kind of life if im to be posted to medical centre after my course and the 8 to 5 life would be damn shiok and i would slowly think about how i wanted to spend those time learning these and that.
But this random thought struck me. Why not now? Why must i wait until the near future to do these? Wad if the future is not wad i tot it would be, not as wonderful as i imagined? Perhaps it's in the gene that human are optimist for we always look toward the bright future, but too much of anything is always bad and most people, including myself, always look too much toward wad the future had in hold for us that we ignore the present. Example would be when im in jc, i keep looking forward to university life that i didn't really cherish my jc life to the fullest extent and the list keep going on and on. It make me wonders if it just human nature or singaporean's high expectation that causing all these.
It make me ponder wad i shld really do in the future, to make myself happy, will owning a huge house, a car with turbo engine and lots of concubine gonna make a man happy? Or will a man rather died a virgin trying to accomplish his dream ( a bit crude but got the idea from some show).
Woah,my mom's angry at me for not sleeping at 2am =p shall go catch a nap now

2009-07-18T23:10:00.002+08:00

Finally get out of slacking mood and decided to do some blogging.

First of all, I'm lazy to explain the details over and over again to everyone so here goes.... this is the only possible explanation why i didnt end up in command sch.

I POP on a wednesday, 9th of june and the week b4, on 2nd june, a wednesday as well, we were asked to check this scoresheet which includes our IFC, SOC and IPPT score. I had a three days excuse lower limb status and it causes me to miss my IPPT, re-IPPT and SOC diagnostic. So it written excused from IPPT on the scoresheet, i asked my platoon sergeant and after he knew my diagnostic was already a gold, he say dont worry and sign the sheet first, they will find time for me to do IPPT. so on friday afternoon, we were supposed to do re-IPPT but since the final SOC is ongoing at the same time, i asked the 2nd lieut from platoon 3 if it will be a better idea if i go for SOC instead since i dont have a diagnostic score for it. He agreed and said it will be a waste of my time to do IPPT again since i already managed to snitch a gold and said it will not affect my chance of going command sch and asked where i heard those rumors =p. So i went for SOC and straight after that i book out in a very rushed manner.

The thing is that the platoon 3 2nd lieut doesn't even know my name and i had not inform my platoon sergeant that he said it will be okay to just use my diagnostic score.

So in the end, i guess on the record, it was recorded that i have not taken IPPT at all.

Now im in the medic course. There might not be much pride or prestige and not as highly paid as officer cadet but from another view, it might be a blessing too.

The course is really slack, and it allows me lot of time to read my magazine and do PT til my arm aches. The bad thing is whether i can keep up this self PT mood for long since everyone just slacked arnd during admin time. Another good thing is that i get to meet a mix of different kind of people. OCS OOC, clerk that pes status cleared and go back to combat. Others included people that came directly from units and this vast array of people granted me to know about the army and how it work on a larger scope. You start to understand how different units operate and hear many other story, esp from those who are in army for more than a year already. OOC has much more experience since they made to go sai gang here and there, not to forget that some of them already went thru jcc and other crap le but got OOC for dumb reason -.- Anyway, i still rather i will be chiong-ing out there, IM GETTING FAT!!!

2009-06-09T21:14:00.002+08:00

I POP-ed!!!
Hahaz, has so much details to elaborate on the last few weeks
Lets see....
Had SITEST, a test on your leadership. Marched 12km to our campsite, nearly died and the next few days is simply WTH, running with our SBO on thru out for all 6 stations under the scorching sun is damn tiring, to add on to the fatigue, a direct hit on my knee cap by someone else's rifle nearly killed me, cannot squat or bend at all for that 2 days but still have to run =(
Missed IPPT because of my knee cap but luckily i have my diagnostic GOLD alr =p
The week after, spend lot of time ba long long -ing ( slacking) arnd since the administrative is always so screwed up. Sitting 3 hrs in parade square awaiting next order and suddenly, activities cancelled and made to go back bunk -.-
the 16km route march is also WTF, shoulder nearly POP-ed, a minor injury that i tot nothing of in the past caused me so much misery. However, at the end of the march, you will feel extremely accomplished.
Last week had practice for POP and five hours under the scorching sun again. BCCT is ouch and POP!!! 24km was easier than the 16km unexpectedly. I feel nothing for the first 12km but however at the 14km mark at rocky hill, a rock caused me to sprain the joint between my butt and thigh. The next 10 km was pain pain pain and more pain for me. Esp for the last 4km since common sense tell you it isn't 4km ONLY. plus my coy's excellent planning resulted in us marching extra 1to 1.5 km.....
Anyway, POP finally over!!!

Right now, wad troubling me is should i attempt to down PES? Everyone upon reading this must be thinking keelui is an ultimate slacker but my intention to down PES isn't really so.
First of all, I enjoy training myself up physically but I do not enjoy spending hours waiting for commands, wasting my life away. Furthermore, upon entering army, i realised many old injuries are giving me a lot of trouble, like my shoulder and esp my back. Waking up in the morning with a backache when there is no physical training the day b4 is really WTF. After the route march today, i was more certain that the injury on my left waist had not recovered totally.
On the contrary, going thru command sch may be quite prestigous and give you a lot of pride as a soldier and you gain a lot of experience and memories along the way and in the future, when you are talking cock with your brothers, you can boast and talk cock about your army life.
Wad's the alternative, down PES and try to get 8 to 5, use those precious time to take up course, read, teach tuition and do many more stuffs that may or may not be useful in the future =p
Decision is so hard to make, but no one can decide for you. Troubled and in a dilenma, wad shall i choose, i guess i'll eventually know -.-

2009-05-24T11:34:00.002+08:00

Hahaz, surprisingly, got to book out which i'm not supposed to, 2 more weeks!!!

In addition to that, got gold for my IPPT diagnostic test, argghh, still have to do the real test again, wad a pain in the ass. Nevertheless, almost complete all the shitty stuff in BMT le...

Rather confused and undecided now, should i express interest in command sch or find a way to chao keng and drop pes? IF i can get 8 to 5 it sound nice too, but is reality that easy? Or is the prestige really worth going thru all the shit for 9 months and tiring myself out? Hahaz, im really a super lazy person, know that im physically fit enuff but i just want to slack thru everyday =p

So many movies to watch, so many shows to watch, so many games to play and so many many things to do but NO TIME, arggghhh, book in time -.-

2009-05-09T10:34:00.003+08:00

Oh yea, another week of BMT is over, finally halfway there. I dont know whether i love this week better than the previous few weeks or not. One thing definitely true is my mentality changed a lot in this one week. During the last few weeks, im going thru a decision making phase and it made me really confused and troubled, made me feel like having someone there to guide me thru the dark. But ultimately, i realised that im the decision maker and i decide for myself. Although i havent come to a complete decision, meaning that i might still changed it afterward, but i decided that for now, i just decide to SAF (any army people will understand wad this mean) and continue with studying like a normal student, enjoying my freedom to the very last bit. Wherever i end up in, whatever tough training they tossed at me i shall just grit my teeth and endure. Since im alr stuck with NS and a pes A/B, shall just make the best out of it and experience as much things as possible and train myself up. And i realised the hope of joining navy after BMT to save myself from all these shit is just pulling my mood and morale down and giving myself a difficult time in BMT.

Hahaz,saw the commandos and their cool weapons and for a moment, i thought, i want to be a commando =p It's rather cool to play with those weapons but nevertheless i still prefer my freedom over anything else.

Anyway, i couldn't say serving NS is all that bad, though i only been thru this for a while, i come to many conclusion and felt that after going thru everything, i will come out physically and mentally stronger. Furthermore, being so deprived of everything in there just make you appreciate every lil thing out there, may it be a civilian life, something as simple as choosing wad you eat, where you want to go, or even be living peacefully. CIVILIAN LIFE ROX.

Last but no least, went to the new PA and had dance practice, never expected laoshi is going and in the end, did all the training and erm, the tiredness incurred is > two insanely speedy AGR, 1 30-60 1 SOC in SBO with everything in it and a 3l water bag plus lot of PT. But really glad that i got to dance again >.<

Anyway, really thankful to those who sms-ed me while im in camp, it was really sweet and revitalizing to see them after a long day of practice. And really glad because i have frens that really care =)

2009-05-03T10:44:00.002+08:00

Extremely troubled this few weeks, im presented with different choices at the present. Im really afraid of committing myself toward a fixed life ahead, it might be stable but it just lack something, an element of surprise, a chance to go to greater height. Maybe it's because I still held the idealistic dream of becoming a billionaire overnight that im afraid to make a decision. Or maybe it's because im afraiding that i will lose my freedom to choose wad i do. However, the incentive is still drawing me in, a quick shortcut out of army, a great monetary incentive, but to the very end, is those really that impt? I really sucks at making decision for myself, esp when we followed a fixed path in our life for the past 18 years. guess i need to speak to some older people for opinions >.<

2009-05-02T08:26:00.002+08:00

____ life sucks, couldn't say it too clearly to avoid getting charge but ya, it really do.

It's not about the accumulation of physical fatigue but more of the loneliness that creeps in and the mental torture it's giving, the fast yet monotonous life draining you of your energy, crippling you of your ability to even think well.

One fine example is the decision to enter the navy. Maybe it's just because im sick of these shit im going thru in bmt that it serve as a hope for me. This truly shows how weak i am, to succumb to wad's in front of me and make a hasty decision. Although the navy still is a very attractive offer due to the money, im having hesitation of dedicating 6 years of my life to it. Even the thoughts of going OCS frightens me, i really hate getting dirty in mud and afraid i couldnt take 9 more months of this shit but i also dont want to waste my 2 years experiencing nothing, i want to make the best out of it.

Im seeking for sound advice of others to reassure myself but ultimately it's my own decision.

I guess this is the phase of life where all the decisions come into play and you suddenly grown up and step into the real world. You have to trust your own judgement, not just words of your fren and that's my biggest problem, im easily swayed by wadever people said. I may put up a strong front but deep inside my belief decision was shaken.

I really need people to give me simple encouragement like 'push on' , 'it's okay' or 'you going to be more man after this!!!' I'm just asking for someone to be always there to gimme simple encouragement like this. To gimme a reason to continue.

Recently, just felt that my life's so extremely screwed up. Im not sure if it's only one person, two people or an entire group of people that i had annoyed and pissed off, but that thought alone just make me feel bad. I dont want to harp on this anymore but it's hard to get rid of this guilt but thru this F-ed up acts of mine i realised some people are really born kind and im amazed at how she's able to talk to me this calmly when she's all pissed off at certain point of time. Most people would just slapped the phone down.

Im a downright coward and i really hates it. I fell in love with a certain girl in one particular chalet last year but i never had the courage to take the initiative. Though i tried to understand her more, the door to her world always seems locked up and i can never find the key to it. I took my own sweet time and only until when all about to end, when i have to enter army, the thought of not seeing her face again just frightens me. I woke up from my dream and realise i can no longer just stand in a distance and peek at her. I get confused and tried to rush thing and now i have done some absolutely stupid stuffs and the damage done might be irreversible, probably is, and trying to salvage it will just make it worse and i knew it would cause it happened b4. If you are really kind, i hope you can just send a simple msg like " i hate you and dont ever want to hear your annoying voice" a clean painful stab to wake me up from my idealistic dream.

I didn't intend for this blog to confess my feelings or wadever, it just serve as an outlet to let these lil things out of my brain, keeping them all inside myself never feels good. It's like i have a million things i want people to know but there's no one i can tell that to and it feels really terrible. Maybe it's not that people do not try to understand me but i always build this wall to protect myself and i end up suffocating within them.

Anyway, dont even attempt to ask who's the girl i like cause i wouldn't entertain this question at all.

Oh, and there's one person i really want to thank but she may not know it. Hahaz, that's our jacq da jie, always willing to listen to wadever nonsense i have to say. THANK YOU >.<

To everybody out there, if you ever feel bored and extra msg to spare. Just send me well wishes or encouragement cause those random stuff really make my day =)

2009-03-15T01:24:00.002+08:00

TYPED A WHOLE LOAD OF CRAP AND HIGHLIGHTED AND DELETE THEM

Simply to put, he's fucking pissed off but it's for no good reason and it might be PMS, menstrual cramp or wadever illness, psychologist might decide to give it a nice name called mental disorder. ANYWAY, he deicded to let off some steam here and decided to stop thinking about others problem and spend more time thinking for himself =p

If your entire life is depicted as a journey, a voyage, would you prefer to overcome storms, maelstrom, whirlpool, and even tsunami or do you wish to always enjoy the calming breeze?

2009-03-09T15:13:00.002+08:00

Fianlly found time to blog about A level results
Woke up late and didnt had any breakfast nor lunch b4 hurrying to school. While I'm on the bus to school, the sheer amount of anxiety piling up is unbelievable, I had never felt like this b4 and it just keep increasing as the bus get nearer and nearer to the school, good thing the groan from my hungry stomach distracted me and i managed to stop feeling so anxious. Really hate the amt of time waiting for the results to be realeased, with all the crap talk and stuff. To make it worse, we couldn't collect our results unless we pay back the GO any stuff that we own. And they found some lousy excuses to tell me i havent pay my KM fee yet, utter nonsense -.- Slapped 60 bucks onto the stupid clerk in the GO who asked me to stop lying my way thru. FINE, pay them the money and they gimme my results
Was rather contented with my results, although i still believe there is area i can do better
General Paper D
Mathematics A
Physics A
Chemistry A
Economics A (WOOO) ^^
Project Work A
Chinese D

Lolz, i really sucked at language i guess, my economics teacher think im a miracle, i think i am too >.<>

Finally, the most worrying event these few years had ended pretty nicely and glad many of my friend did well.
Lolz, DHKS officially accumulated 18A for A level, and we barely started our revision after NDP and a few performances after that in september =p

Anyway, decided to have bonding session with my mom and bake some cake with her guidance, though the mango mousse cake doesnt really turns out to have the chilling soury taste i wanted, it's still nice >.<

GCE A LEVEL EXAMINATION RESULT

2009-03-06T01:17:00.001+08:00

TO WAR!!! TO VICTORY!!! FOR GLORY!!! TODAY, WE SHALL DINE IN HELL!!!

2009-02-26T13:21:00.002+08:00

Bleh, had a nightmare ytd, it was about my mom having cancer and was on the verge of dying. The thoughts of my mom leaving us had never crossed my mind even once, i might have gotten too accustomed to the life that my mom is always around to take care of my everyday needs. The dream seems so realistic and are that instant, i feel sorrow overwhelming me and at the same time, it's mixed with another feeling, a very lost feeling, i do not know what to do next, how to continue with my life. And at the moment my mom's breath stopped, I got shocked out of my dream in tears. Maybe it's high-time i made my mom stopped eating all the junk food with me and hope, wish and pray my mom live to a ripe old age, and die after i died =p Sound rather selfish right? im a boy that doesn't want to leave my mom -.-

Anyway, i only gamed for one hour today!!! Amazing?

Have been busy youtubing and found many great videos, esp the bunch of this certain violinist who wore a ghastly mask and he played many songs from anime and game and they were freaking awesome, esp this named shangri-la shall upload them on facebook when i have the time, in the meanwhile, i gonna download the clips from youtube =p and oh yea, people called him the screamer becos of his mask.

Should i stop gaming altogether??? It make keelui a dull and emo boy -.-

Wanted to write some emo shit earlier on but youtubing has lighten my mood so much, see ya =)

2009-02-24T00:44:00.002+08:00

Kee Lui is back again, SURPRISED?
lets see wad has i done in the past week, the weekdays are per normal, monday and wednesday in nj, tuesday slacking and thursday in jurong west primary, friday in nan hua -.-
Im sort of leading a repetitive lifestyle or being led by a routine, not that's it's bad but it just lack element of surprises.
Anyway, are haunted by muscleache all over the body because there's activity everyday.
I guess the only thing interesting are on friday, get to see yihang "talk" again but details are confidential >_<
The next interesting would be on saturday, many seniors went back to nj and after practice and lunch, went to beauty world to play pool.
WOO, i feel damn on form that day, hearing the ball goes whoosh and drop into the hole feels really great and in the process, managed to catch up a bit with jee poh and yuan jie, havent feel so good in quite a while already.
However, i'm still very sianz!!! I want to go out, I want to watch movie!!! BUT NO ONE IS THERE TO JIO ME OUT!!! Oh shucks and great -.-
Heard many comments on slumdog millionaire and has been wanting to watch it since a long time ago, anyone interested? even if it's only one person, i dont mind, i can pay for the tix too >.<

2009-02-17T09:18:00.002+08:00

BLOG REVIVAL!!!
Life after A'lv is getting really boring and I practically do nothing but gaming
Everyday when the first ray of twilight shines into my room, I wake up, walk to the living room and switch on my com like a programmed machine.
This kind of life is rather okay when my brother is still at home recovering because there's someone to talk to but he only left for two days and im utterly bored at home.
Schooling is really like a love/hate relationship. You love to go to school to see your friends and the activities going around, being constantly surrounded by these two elements gave me energy ( and no pimples =p) but you really hate the boring lectures, the "unneccessary" homework and exams of course. My favourite places in NJ are undoubtedly the grandstand, simply love standing there staring at the field and munching any tidbits i bought. The second place is quite weird though, it's the rooftop near block C. I go there alone when the weather is cloudy and less sunny to catch a quick nap. Most notes are not heavy enuff to cover my face properly but the econs notes with their thickness serve this purpose rather well.

On the bright side, I totally forgot about someone, deleted that person from my hard drive and RAM (mind) but someone else popped out. There was this stupid incident before my preliminary where I attempted to ask that person out for a movie but i asked the wrong person just because the initial is the same and the email account seems so familiar.

Had alot of movies i wanted to watch but no one to watch with so people, dont hesitate, pick up your phone and ask poor keelui out =(

2008-12-07T01:07:00.002+08:00

Argghhh, being far too busy with chalets and outing recently, I need a REST!!!
Anyway, I'm here to rant and bitch(bastard)... My patience is really running out for a certain someone, every word he threw at me is filled with thorns and sarcasm and I really hate how he like to denounce wad everyone said is wrong to prove himself right... Anyway, I despise losers who all talk but no say... I had this urge to just grab him and punch but I decided that I should not cause a commotion and for the sake of my frens who are apparently good frens with him... Then I decided he is not worth the hassle cos I pity him enuff for being such a loser in life. Be a braggart and continue being a loser for life. And yea, I'm totally different ( A bit BHB?)
LOL

2008-12-02T04:11:00.002+08:00

Finally back from prom night, havent been tagging for a while le, too bad no photos cause i no camera!!!

Anyway, one big conclusion is taking photos under dim light and bright flash is really sucky, dun ever try it, wait for the light to be back plz...

Anyway, the food for prom really sucks cept the dessert, I personally give it four and a half yum ( YUM YUM YUM YUM Yu). Just wait for the whole thing to finish and start taking pics with the 4/5 peeps which is my aim all along, too bad no class photos -.-

Hahaz, post prom was so so, not that much people there and the music was only suitable for the two grinding couple and another kissing couple. Anyway, tried my best to have fun there, rather tired after that and cabbed home to bathe. Waiting for my hair to totally dry b4 i go to sleep

Anyway, I find out NJ got a lot of pretty girls but of course i still love my goddess, i should have just said you look like a goddess when i first saw her instead some other weird stuff...

Back to the point, i start to wonder izzit they are pretty because of the make up, hairdo and dresses or izzit NJ uniform simply diminish their prettiness altogether???

2008-11-23T01:22:00.003+08:00

A really lovely song from Final Fantsay IV, shouldn't use lovely, i think emotional is more suitable.

I can't wait to get the DS back from my bro and start playing.

Anyway, if i have the chance, i would really love to learn an instrument

but i guess life's built on regrets?

I guess i will turn into an emo kid if i continue to listen to nubuo uematsu songs....

2008-11-20T01:28:00.005+08:00

IT'S THE END OF A'LV!!!

lolz, i know i'm slow but the past two days were rather hectic =p

First of all, introducing my comrades

...

First comes the most important member of the team, he slash thru all enemies alone and create an opening in the enemy's defense, he alone massacre one million enemy soldiers, he is none other than my uni-ball Signo DX 0.38 pen!!!

Despite suffering from immeasurable amount of damage (the crack at the end) and nearly died of exhaustion (it's running out of ink) , it survived til the very end =)

The next member appears only occasionally but he's also another honourable member who did the finishing touches (physics paper 1)

Now, I welcome the man behind the scene, the mastermind of all battle strategies and my advisor and tactician, My TEXAS INSTRUMENT TI-84 Plus Graphic Calculator!!!

Hahaz, i know i'm being lame

Anyway, A level seems very fast at the start, there's two papers every day but at the end, it was really draggy and the mood to study was definitely not there. And who the hell set the econs paper, he deseve to run over by a car from the front then goes stan and bang one more time *repeat a trillion time

Wth lor, Qn 1 to 6 all seems so foreign

The other subjects were okay, with some efforts, it can be conquered easily.

A's over but it seem so sian, like there's too much time on hand right now and i dont know how to spend it.

Btw, really wanted to thanks yan jia for kai dao-ing me ( although we just crapped on msn)

I felt really frustrated before A level ended and I guess it's just myself feeling that way. She then reminded me that it's all the problem of my perspective... I guess that's something that anyone knew or understood all along but they need to be reminded occasionally about it.

Anyway, I used to think badly about a certain someone but now I realised i'm not any different from that person, so that's how it feel to be practical, to think about abandoning something u enjoyed because there's no more prospect in it. But i decided, if there is no one to train me, to teach me, I will train and teach myself. I will open my own path. But for now... It's time to party!!! I guess i won't blog for a while now =p

2008-11-04T22:36:00.002+08:00

The victim of A level is here to update the current progress and casualities

Day 1

General Paper

Wad's the difference between studying and not studying? Absolutely nothing cause they simply refuse to give a straightforward environment question that has anything to do with economic, human nature like greed or relate it to our society or ask stuff like whether environmentalist is hypocrites etc etc ....

I love my environment and i fight for animal rights but lookat what happened to me -.- SCREW GP

Day 2

Physics Paper 3 was lolz, after u did RJC paper, u find it a joke, so far only lost 2 marks cause of definition, might lost more in the qualitative aspects calculation im quite confident.

Anyway, i think only sae chong and me really noticed, they asked us to fill in the blank and obviously change in internal energy of the first reaction is given 4.2 J but if u used the formula 3/2 PV which is applicable since it is ideal gas, it's 2.25 J!!!

Since there is two blanks for change in internal energy to be filled in, calculating using the same formula, it could result in two different sets of answer, by the way, if you did it that way, one is 2.25 and another 4.5. Therefore i chose another way of choosing to let the second work done be zero and it lead to only one answer which is safer. Also because 4.2 J is near to 4.3 J which is arrived later on and they should be the same cause change in pv of both reaction is the same, i chose this alternative. CAMBRIDGE MADE A BUG, who said it's not possible for them to screw it up???

And im not complacent nor arrogant, cause im aware there is many people in other jcs helping us to tank or to shift the bell curve leftward to give us our A

Math Paper 1 was again, if u did RJC papers, u find it a big joke. for a stunning fact, i totally forgot about cosine rule and try using some weird method until i suddenly remembered i learn this thing called the cosine rule in secondary sch but has to painstakingly derive the formula myself. Nevertheless, the paper was very well done in my opinion. Made some stupid and careless mistakes but it doesn't really matters, im confident of scoring above 90 for it.

I don't know wad's up but i seem to be totally in the shape today, even the speed of processing information and answering seem so natural, nothing dumbfound me on the way at all. Has all the stupid brain games i played paid off?

Anyway, complete the physics paper within 55 minutes and slacked for 1 hour 5 minutes and math i spent 1 hour 25 minutes and the rest of the time was spend checking by doing forward backward and forward again and subbing values to make sure and last of all, i love my GC, so many answers could be checked and confirmed by using the GC, it's even possible to check those non integration type of qn, yes it can, lolz. 'm really surprised at how much time i spent today on both papers, it was really shocking, I normally spent around at least 1 hour 40 minutes for physics paper 3 and 2 hour 30 minutes for math paper 1. Hope this streak go for me, let me see, i have 8 more papers, just enuff for a GODLIKE streak. DIE A LEVEL!!!

2008-10-27T17:08:00.001+08:00

Finally found the time to make a trip to some cd store and bought this album.

Well, most commented that this album is not nice but personally, i think it's just not his usual style and is actually quite unique.

Anyway, counting down to A level now but im totally not confident yet, slacked too much le -.-

Before I talked about today, showed some pictures first

Guess where this is??? Welcome to reality, Singaporeans, this IS SINGAPORE and not some ulu place hor, it's outside boonlay MRT station. Look totally like some suburb right???

Anyway, magnified part of it and take a good LOOK!!!

Lolz, first time i actually try to edit photo with mac and im totally clueless. It's pretty obvious what i'm trying to show in the enlarged version so i shall not spell it out. It's really interesting why the poster's only in one language -.-

Back to today, went to boon lay and have a swim at the sports complex, the attendance was overwhelming, all the j1s were present, three j2s and shibin's borther there too. So ten big guys went for ten laps in the deep pool and regrettably, the water taste extremely salty. After the ten laps, went to the lazy pool and floated around as the current pushes us. The ten guys then went to the big slide and it was really painful -.- The ten guys then went to the jacuzzi to chill out, not to forget the usual lameness... Finally, went back to the medium pool to swim another ten lap under the sun.

Today really serves the purpose of allowing me to relax and release my stress, now i shall take a nap and prepare for the final showdown...

DIE A LEVEL.... GO TO HELL, our twelve years of rigid education system!!!

2008-10-18T22:07:00.003+08:00

Lolz, the prom night early bird's discount extended -.- HOW early huhz? Should i just find some people who I can tag along??? Anyone interested jio me along =p

Anyway, A lv coming in two more weeks and I have been going out almost everyday to study, not always efficient, but one hour work outside is more than my two days work at home -.-

I'm so gonna own back that chem paper and get that A i deserved and im not gonna fall prey to the trick questions in physics as im not gonna use just intuition to answer anymore.

GP is still as worrying, i will try my best!!!

Anyway, Nj had the stupidest open house you can ever imagine, because of the close proximity to O level, almost no sec 4 come at all. Then because of the new sec 1 has no fixed CCA... No one is really interested in recruiting them -.-

Guarded the booth when the juniors went to perform and in the process, the DM walked over and had a talk with me,hx and eng kwan!!! Wah, I'm damn scared -.-

Went marina walk walk with da,yuan jie and hx and had carl's junior. I almost vomit from the full meal -.-

RAWR, I'm gonna get enlisted only in April, whether it's good or bad, there is always pros and cons in everything we do, i guess.

Fight!!! Kee Lui!!! Fight!!!

The battle against A level approaches, will it be the end of humanity? Or a new start?

2008-10-12T15:59:00.002+08:00

Rawr, 21 days left to A level and im still not even in second gear, wad's the use of having up to second gear when you cannot even go up to second gear??? This remind me of driving in Singapore -.-

Anyway, after A's over, it will be hectic and I think i give up on going to grad nite or some chalets le. Everyone seems to be accompanying their class for grad nite and since my class dun want to go, it would be rather awkward to stick to other people's class. And zomg, if winston is right about the date of dance chalet, I most probably can only go there to cook breakfast for them -.-

Rawr, wad a holiday, this left me even less motivation to study now.

And i dun want to go into army =(

At this rate, i have to live 21 years without even having a gf b4, that's pretty pathetic.

Rawr, i hate the world....

2008-10-03T14:28:00.002+08:00

Lolz, came back from anchor point, it's bustling with people and a lot a lot of students. Even on the way home, there's many students in the neighbourhood too. Izzit some kind of holiday going on? Anyway, went to anchor point to have some lunch but the queue at subway is way too long -.-

So continued with my plan to buy some stuffs at cold storage. Spent a lot of time trying to find the bottled bacon that the western stall auntie at nan hua alway used. No matter how much i tried, i couldn't find it though =(

I wanted to try making those kind of grilled potato where you cut the potato in half and dig the content out, mix it with some cheese, mayo, ham plus those small pieces of bacon. Then u put them back into the potato and grill or bake it.

Anyway, bought a lot of stuff at cold storage. It's almost as if im getting ready for war -.-

Bought my favourite Sprite, Meijee Cocoa Milk, many types of pizza, replenished some crispy chicken with beancurd skin and some tidbits like chipmore, pringles and orea mini bites. U must be thinking, orea? 三XX安? Nope, it's the orea snack bar that have problem, not my mini bites >.<

So in the end, gave up on buying lunch and make instant noodle, the ramen type and some crispy chicken, learnt my lesson that the instructions behind the packages are just enuff to make it edible, if they tell you 180 degree celsius, you better set it to 200 degree celsius to make it really crispy -.- To make my lunch complete, I had a icy cold Sprite in the Olympic glass given by MacDonald as free gifts.

Arggh, im pissed, my Dark Knight is actually telesnyc-ed, had to re-download it again. Watching many old movies by Scarlet Johanssan right now =p

2008-10-02T19:42:00.002+08:00

Whee, watched titanic again, this is actually the first time i watched without missing any scenes.

On another hand, i only completed less than half of a compre the whole day -.-

Anyway, after so many years of movie watching, still find Titanic one of the best movie.

The scene where the titanic sink, I wanted to describe it as majestic or magnificent but i find it a bit sadist to say so, but the breaking of the ship body and the ship sinking vertically is still as awe-striking as ever. The only sad part to this story is jack have to die -.-

I wonder izzit true that only one ship turn back, if so, the person commanding that ship (not sure of his rank) is extremely commendable.

Alrgiht, time to work hard b4 i failed my A level

2008-09-30T00:13:00.002+08:00

GOSH, im gonna die -.-

My brother just left for camp and i decided to play a lil PS3 and I accidentally overwrite his save file -.-

Now i have two choice, use his previous save file which is quite long ago to achieve his current standard but it's hard to make an exact duplicate i guess. Second choice, convince him that it's okay as my item and level is more superior (i get to play more as he is in camp) and he shall continue with my save file. He will surely grumble and grumble i guess.

Oh, that's a last choice, since he said he play game just to waste time as he has plenty, convince him to continue from his old save file, oh my, that's quite evil >.<

Anyway, today's a exceptionally tiring day of school for me, physics and chem tutorial tackles my left brain excessively and the double econs and double GP drained the juice off the right side.

The afternoon and night has been rather unproductive but i guess the lessons in the morning is enuff to compensate for that =p

PFFFTTT, cannot wait for this torment to end, but a new torment named the army is going to start soon. I hate my life, I rather be a girl >.<

2008-09-28T23:20:00.002+08:00

I just realised... not only am I a crazy anime and manga fan, I'm also a crazy drama fan, be it chinese drama ( 古裝 ) , korea drama, japanese drama or hong kong drama, i LOVE them all. Im so gonna finish every drama that i failed to watch during this A lv period once this freaking exam is over.

On another hand, the turmoil in my family is getting worse, and as usual, it's three against one. And yet again, i swore not to touch gambling unless it's festive season and if i have a family in the future, i will put them as my priority, im not gonna end up like my useless dad. Can you imagine a father who is supposed to be the breadwinner and yet every month, he only pay for his own car and half of the flat's installment. My mom earned barely 1k per month and my father give her little more than 200 bucks and she pay for everything, everything... utility bills, our pocket money, all the expenses of the family, furniture and helped with the installment of the house. That fucking useless Dad didn't even bring us on a holiday in our entire life and after winning 150k in 4D and withdraw 125k from his CPF, he squandered them all on gambling and left only about 50k in 4 months time? He might even be womanizing again. And after so much, he said he not gonna go gamble today but left the house at 4 and came back at 11, obviously gambling again. My mom even found him withdrawing 8k in one day to spent on gambling. Come on, the black horse only yield about 1.1X returns and there's so many horse in a race, any sane goon would know it's a sure lose. Gambling should be banned, Singapore government can go die for wanting to build a casino.

And i have decided for the last time, i gonna throw this 'dad' of mine not into old folks home, i gonna leave him on the street and rot.

This few days totally spoilt my mood.

2008-09-25T15:07:00.002+08:00

Holy, i just realised that one of the best anime i watched, trinity blood, why it has such a lousy ending, the author of the original novel died halfway thru the process of writing the novel!!! Zomg la, another anime i liked a lot is Chrono Crusade, Actually both has quite similar background. In trinity blood, the background is setted in the vanticans while chrono crusade belongs to the order of magdalene. Lolz, but wad's nice about this two anime series is that the main character can go into demon form which is extremely cool. This explains why i like the game Wild Arm 2 as the main character also can go into demon form =p

2008-09-25T14:05:00.004+08:00

Zzz, I'm feeling extremely bored, slept for more than 12 hours ytd night. woke up in the afternoon and the bad thing is, i always feel lethargic in the afternoon, my optimum mugging hours is from morning 7am to 11am plus and from 5pm to 12 am. Wah, this is bad, hope I can kick this slightly nocturnal habit -.-
Anyway, im extremely lonely at home, someone jio me out to study please, im so sick of staying home.
Hahaz, after watching many romances and drama series recently, I'm wondering when will my destinied other half appears? Hahaz, I know im picky, but I just want to find someone who im willing to enslave myself to, but no physical toture or abuse please -.- Oh, and the crap about getting three wives so we can play mahjong,bridge and cards together is a joke, those i have said that to, dun take it seriously =p
MUG MUG MUG

2008-09-23T23:08:00.004+08:00

W hee, finally finished my 新鹿鼎记, although many parts of the script is really screwed up as the story jumped here and there without proper link but as much as people are criticising this show, i still think it's really comical and all the actors really suits the character they are potraying. The princess is really extremely slutty unlike the 2000 series where lin xin ru doesn't have that slutty look. Shuang er, wei xiao bao most faithful wife is supposed to be 金庸笔下 "最可爱的少女" and i think they made a good choice. Not surprisingly, almsot everyone prefer her ghost look in the show

Although most people dont think the ah ke in this show is pretty where she supposed to be the most prettiest, but i think she fit the haughty and prideful nature a lot.And for those people who asked me whether the male lead is good looking. In my opinion, he's more suitable to have a clear forehead and wear something like a beany.Take a look urself bah

Lolz, but im getting the same feeling again, after rushing a certain show or game and it's near completion, you just don't wish the story to end, it's as if you lost a good fren and there is a very strong feeling of emptyness. BOO, so i shall replace this emptyness with studying, hope i can pull it off =p
Anyway, im glad that the milk product im consuming contains no poison, at the rate im drinking milk, my liver will probably harden to diamond bah -.-
Rawr, i love watching shows but i dont like the mixed feeling im having now >.<

2008-09-21T01:22:00.002+08:00

Went for dance horizon's dance concert named beyond horizon II
Here's how the brochure look like ( SB, you are so wrong that im throwing it away)

Some are abstract ideas and i dun really get it but i enjoy the whole show nevertheless, there's 10 item in total, not 9. Anyway, there's metamorphosis again, guess Su lao really like it, heard he mentioning it b4, hahaz, although i dun get to dance it because of UnI but i still like that item alot and learnt some parts of the action, thanks to jun hong 'ge' and the music is forever catchy =)

And hor, yuan jie, although i add in essence of 'gl'ing but i really enjoy u dance metamorphosis more, esp how you sweat it all out =p

Anyway, the chor lor me went in dance jacket, firstly cause i think it would be cold and secondly cause i dun know what to wear, glad that i wear it into the theatre though, when the second item started (i think that item quite nice too), my hair was standing le, quite cold -.-

Hahaz, went to walk one round with the guys, am i imagining things or are we getting more mushy as days goes by??? Lolz.

Anyway, quite a mircale i blogged twice per day, that's because... watched a gd performance and was actually performing for a sucky one ytd, wad a contrast

By the way, Dance Horizon Troupe (Singapore) = DHTS in the logo, sound so alike DHKS cept for me >.<

2008-09-20T16:15:00.007+08:00

First of all, i just remembered some photos that i took for my juniors on NDP

(I know it's has been more than a month -.- )

Got back most of result le, learnt a painful lesson mass =/= weight, can u imagine the amount of marks i lost for this stupid mistake of mine?

So in the end physics 64.6/100 B

I'm damn sad, I'm supposed to be getting A for this.

Next, Math Paper 1, lesson learnt is dun drink eat too much b4 exams, going toilet four times in total to urinate thrice and settle big business once is super bad, really bad, i left 12 marks blank because of that

Paper 2, conclusion, I sucks at anything that requires me to explain with words

Total for Math 75/100 A

It's an A1 alright but i want my A*!!!!

Chemistry was ...

....

I felt totally demoralised

No lesson learnt, pure stupidity

Paper 1 24/40

Paper 2 26.5/60

Paper 3 28.5/80

It's an S, S for SUPER???

NO, it literally mean sub pass but it also mean u FAILED and u SUCKS

Hope my econs wont fail bah and gp, please please please please dun fail!!!!

Rawr, ever since the olympic took away my momentum for studying, it's really bad, and when i finally garnered the will power to do some work, the stupid CHEM DEPARTMENT failed to upload the prelilm answers as they said they would, YOU BUNCH OF MOTHER FUCKERS, THE TAX PAYERS PAY TAX TO RAISE YOU BUNCH OF USELESS DOGS, I DEMAND THE ANSWER KEY NOW!!!

Pffft, I want to learn from my mistakes also cannot.. RAWR.

Yet another day wasted, will tmr be like today? Or kee lui SUPER TRANSFORM like all heroes in manga and game and obtain some superpower that allows him to beat the final boss? All mystery will be divulged.... when the A level results come out, wait patiently, really patiently for the conclusion of KL VS A LV PAPER.

oh ya, and i find nothing special about the magnum force girls, just not my type =p

quote that really touched me

Itachi : Sasuke, forgive me... for the last time

That's how story character transform huh? (NONO, i dun mean transform like power rangers, the black comedy from disgaea 3 was entertaining though) from a big badass that kills his clan to a peace lover that sacrifices everything for the sake of the village and his beloved brother.

By the way, Sasuke is DUMB, he should be kicking Akatsuki's ASSes right now, not trying to destroy the vilage -.-

But i guess nobody really understand what im ranting, Lolz

anyway, should i buy all the manga i read online? to make my comic collection even more awesome???

Hahaz, i feel so stupid, i keep wanting to end this post but i keep ranting random nonsense.

1 2 3, stop typing, full stop

2008-09-13T14:50:00.004+08:00

Whee, just woke up after taking my flu medicine, felt much better, pffft, the wind this morning was super cold -.-

On a side note, han xie lent me his tsiao jin teng's album with the signature!!!

Got really pissed off to try to dl it on my own, stupid mac OS cannot read WMA!!??

Haven't been listening to chinese song for a while le, have been mass dling OST from games anime and etc.

Anyway... my brother came back from camp again so it mean no touching the PS3, hahaz, but he damn shocked when he spent 30 hours and he only reincarnated twice and is lv 40 but im lv 351 and reincarnated many times le when i spent also 30 hours!!! SLOWPOKE

Hahaz, i transfer the PS3 to the living room and my dad got super pissed cause he doesn't get to watch TV, so in order to have a better time, my mum brought a new LCD one and gave us the old one, now my room got TV le!!! Hahaz, did some shifting of furniture because of the new television and my room actually looked better than b4!!! lolz, but im bored, cause my bro's home =p

2008-09-10T21:46:00.002+08:00

Wootz, exams ended, now it's ur best time to jio me out =p

Hahaz, chem is really SCREWED, screwed pape 3 and tot i could make a come back with paper 1 and 2 but screwed them as well. Woo, just hope can at least get half of my math or physics bah -.-

Im damn sian at home now, guess i just chiong my Disgaea 3 whole day bah -.-

2008-09-09T22:30:00.002+08:00

OMG!!! I lost 6 marks for a very stupid stupid mistake!!!

ABC make a angle of 20 degree with the horizontal, not DB!!! Whole QN XXXXXXX!!!

Rawr, and mr yong's prediction still as godlike huhz? Three level laser system really came up XD

But i still screwed it =p

Rawr, physics was okay bah, except i lost marks in stupid area which supposed to be my forte, hope my A dun fly away becos of this.

Tmr's Chem, die liao,Really really DIE liao

2008-09-08T14:37:00.002+08:00

i'm back!!!

Lolz, abandoned this blog due to all the gaming but exams are coming and the mood to game is not there =p

Anyway, half of my prelilms are over and my mood during the prelilm period can be simply described by Olympic Fever... With five channels that broadcast olympic events non stop, you think any sane person would be able to study? Hahaz, so much for wanting to score four As for prelilm, im really lacking in the motivation, chem is screwed as usual and i told myself to buck up for paper 1 and 2 and study in the holiday but... hahaz, as usual, sleep eat play stone, my four favourite activities in the holidays... HAIZ

from the moment i post this post onward, i promised myself to concentrate on the exams tmr and the day after, HOPE i could fulfil my own promise -.-

There is a lot i want to do after prelilms and i guess it's my only motivation

Let's see

Movies dled

Memoirs of Geisha

Titanic -.-

Wanted

The Dark Knight

Games

PS3 Disgaea 3

get the stupid wizard in Cabal to lv 95 ....

RAWR, no time to talk nonsense le, concentrate kee lui CONCENTRATE, lolz, im talking to myself XD

2008-08-10T01:23:00.006+08:00

National Day over, Another six months of hardwork presented. Lolz, i may sound very sian, but I'm not feeling sianz!!! I just dun know how to type as if im very high -.- Anyway, the performance was okay, wouldn't say great after watching the olympic opening, shall not elaborate on that but i love every item of that night so much =p Back to NDP, sure was okay, hope the cameras are much better this week. I have decided to let myelf feel like it's national day for once and enjoy my day. Actually i dun know wad im typing le, Lolz, feeling very tired but feel like putting some words down. Anyway, just wanted to say that i want to treasure every moment of life, esp when im dancing. It always after losing things that are important that humans start to learn -.-
BLah, i planned wad to blog on the bus but i forgot them all!!!

Anyway, downloaded memoirs of the geisha, i know im a bit slow but it's like finally!!! This is my third attempt to download it properly. Shall watch it when I have the time after prelilm, ALONE. TYTY.LOLZ, rawr, although i drank some wine, im not drunk, im just sad but it's no use being sad over some stupid stuff, so i shall goes sleep.

OH YA, one last thing, to my brothers, i dun like hearing that name, it spoilt my day and to my stupid brother!!! Never get to eat sushi doesn't mean you can drink all my MEIJEE milk and i tot you said you reporting to camp str8? He will not be reading this, i just write for fun =p BYE

2008-07-10T23:50:00.008+08:00

Exco handover today, I feel like a free man, doesn't mean i feel burdened or anything, I just dun like to be a leader, I rather enjoy dancing without having any other considerations. Really felt that I have learnt so much here and I've never regret spending one moment here in njcd, if i must really name something i regretted, I must say it's the opportunity of flirting with XXXXXXX XXXXX girls, even though i dun think they are pretty, they are totally my type of girls =p And, i'm utterly pissed off by any nonsense about njcd or wang laoshi, keep it going and you will see the worst of me, i've been giving you guys face because you are my frens and one of you, my senior. But one more nonsense and that's it. Wang laoshi might not be my first dance instructor but i've definitely learnt a lot from him and respect him for giving so much of himself for us, and that also goes for my respect for him. Respect me as a fren and stop the nonsense.
On another hand, nan hua had their election today, couldn't go down because of the clash. As grads, we shouldn't interfere with their decision and should respect it,it's their choice and it affects them. I think i've done what i should, whether some people like it or not, and an apology has been declared to the dancers or so i heard. It's new beginning so forget the old prejudice, only then can we move on and people do can change, I've seen it with my own eyes. Wad they need is true frens by their side.And most imptly, watching liang yuan since he was sec 1, i always knew he was an impulsive person but the more impulsive his actions are because of wad he heard, the more it show that he cares for dance. Although his actions might be a little over the edge but i think i will be doing an injustice if i do not do anything to clear some misunderstanding about him. Anyway, hope the new exco are ready for a bumpy ride, since laoshi's pi qi recently have been the worst for the past six years.
While another journey of mine ended, I has to find a new beginning for myself, may it be dancing, studying or even finding a wife for myself =p I guess i have to start planning for myself too. Anyway,i remembered this random quote i always see in Hwa Chong and I firmly believed in it.

2008-07-04T23:52:00.003+08:00

Gosh, finally back to post in a proper mood, have been in a rather foul mood the last few days because of soundwave and some other reason. Firstly, the soundwave is a waste of time, they dun even need us there, can just get any people to walk around as moving backdrops. Just because we are getting paid doesn't mean it's okay to waste our time. Next, laoshi been in a really foul mood the last few days and his fury keep befalling us because we see him often. And getting scolded because we got stuck somewhere in explanade not because we want to and nearly missed the first scene is totally pathetic. This teach you a lesson to bring your pass and handphone with you at all times -.-
I realised i have been quite biased after hearing one side of the story, my first impression is that guy a complete bastard and i got really angry, it's like adding fuel to my anger that is already building up because of stress. Decided to listen to more sources, asked around, even people i dun normally talk to, enable me to get a clearer picture. Well, my stand now is, it doesn't matters who is the exco, i only know that the problem that has been persisting is splitting dance apart. Why are things turning out this way? There's no bad guy or good guy in this situation, all of us are just students, dancers, nothing else more than that. All victims. I believe everyone just wanted to help dance in their own ways and there's where the conflict arise.
Doesn't really want to harp on this topic anymore, and forget wad i said in a fit of anger, well, those are words of anger -.- AND wad i wanted to say in the first place is grads are being nosy and helped too much, making some relying on grads for help. Like i said b4, grads aren't supposed to meddle on anything except maybe teaching a bit of ji ben gong and enjoying our time dancing with you guys -.-
Anyway, i felt that if there is so much idle time for us to discuss such matters, why dont we just ignore it and put our feets in the air and just dance, there is still so much for everyone of us to learn, why waste time on speculating who is speaking the truth, who are been biased?
ZZZ,my brain cells are dying.

2008-06-11T00:51:00.005+08:00

I'm utterly bored and at the same time frustrated. The thought of having "SOUNDWAVE" practices filling up the rest of my holidays is a bit errrrr .... Alright,actually it's quite a mixed feeling, pissed that i dun get the time to study but hey!!! I doubt i will study =P And at the same time, i get to dance and see the PA eyecandy XD

Anyway, back to "SOUNDWAVE". It is production ( a big one) by the People Association and we are acting out different scene in singapore, specifically, we are doing one on chinatown and one on botanic garden. We were suddenly called and informed that there is a practice today (like WTH) and FDK made massive changes, rather glad that i do not have to do the disgusting scene with lu khei but was scared that laoshi won't like the changes made -.- The taiji part is okay, just have to work more on focusing and thinking of nothing else but breathing when doing it =)

Hahaz, since i have some free time after aristal, spent time dreaming about my ideal home and family again XD

First, my house must have a small garden. The interior of the house must be spacious but not too empty to make it cosy, I want a really big shelf to house my beloved comics, the one now is a little bit too small. A sneak preview of my little collection ( part of it)

Next, my house MUST BE TIDY, im sick of my own untidiness, my desk is in a total mess -.-

Alright, last of all, it must have a big 天台 and i want to grow a jungle in my 天台. Then i can relax on a wooden chair, have a sip of some juice and do some work on my laptop,WHEEEE XD

And the tian tai must have a good view of either a sea or a far sight. Pretty pleased with the view from my room right now =) Don't blame me for the lousy way of posting pictures, it's my first =p

Last of all, I want to have a dumb wife, not really dumb but those kind that doesn't have much 心機 cause i really hate girls that go around backstabbing. Hahaz, my wife must be able to cook and last of all, she must love kids cos i do =)

I want to have children as early as i can, I dont want to have any generation gap with them =p

I want an elder son then a daughter, followed by a pair of 龍鳳 twins.

Anyway, I know that sometimes im on the talkative side but actually i do enjoy serenity the most, my dream is to be able to slack at my 天台 with my wife and family and watch the night sky as we go to sleep...

Well that's all, good night XD

2008-06-06T01:23:00.003+08:00

Hahaz, I know it has really been a long time and i don't know where to start. Let's see, aristal finally over but my life has yet to return to the calm old days (does it even exist in the first place?) but it is definitely one less burden to handle. Im not trying to infer NJCD is a burden to me but rather like i can get some workload off my hand.

Aristal was definitely a blast, Im not someone who's glib with my tongue so i will just say this much about it, too bad for those who didn't watch, you certainly had missed out on something -.- Anyway, i came up with a new mousology about dance, I feel like dancing is like anesthetic, when you are dancing on stage, those injuries incurred along the way disappear all of a sudden. The feeling of the adrenaline rush and the ability to ignore pain transcend any word i could possibly think of XD Cheeky eh? But be warned, the aftershock is definitely also one of the worst. Take me for an example I knew that skin could split open because of the tension but i did not know that the flesh can do that too. It is certainly worse that any bruise, cut or fracture. The injury is so deep inside that you couldn't reach it with an alcohol swipe. Worst is that after half a week of rest, it break open from excessive walking -.-

Anyway, i felt that i have not been in a right state of mind since aristal ended, i feel so empty at hand that im doing a lot of stupid and irrational stuff that Kee Lui will not do to entertain myself. The thought of searching for my perfect girl is raging inside me for the past five months and it certainly had erupted this past few days -.- Sorry for being so horny, everyone -.-

Anyway, im really tired and i still hve to reach nan hua early tmr, so buh bye -.-

2008-05-06T22:56:00.003+08:00

eeeww, im damn bored. Not in the right mood to study, the sight of organic chemistry make me faint. To make it worse, i have to run for 4 x 400 race tmr, my thigh isn't ready for this, they have been wobbly for the past few weeks -.-

Anyway, while walking on home today, i passed by the neighbourhood shops and decided to buy a can of Sprite from on of them. Realised the card shop uncle very old le, all the white hair and wrinkles are showing. Made me wonder if he have any family as he always seem so lonely at the shop. Took a look around his shop and realised everything sold are getting outdated there. Old watches, batteries, plain looking toys that have been on the shelves since im five years old and many many more. This really make me wonder how he survived, thru selling only trading cards to neighbourhood kids? Also passed by the bubbletea shop and it has been several years since the auntie decided bubbletea has gone out of the trend and decided to koup the uncle business by selling trading cards too. However shabby this shops might look, it always give me this warmth feeling, esp the people there, they have been there and i see them everyday for the past ten plus years. I think humans always take things that is always there for granted until they are gone. Maybe I should go and entertain the uncle when i have the time like i used to =)

2008-04-27T23:13:00.002+08:00

Oh yea,the wu shu performance is finally over, time to say bye to muscle ache. On another hand,had second lesson of ballet with Ms Tay,might be the start of another round of muscle ache -.-
Back to the wu shu,had surprisingly many tough training sessions despite that it's a small scale performance. Guess it's just making use of the oppurtunity to train us. Anyway,now that the performance has ended, has more time to concentrate on other stuff le.

Exams are coming and i havent started on my revision yet. Think im getting too complacent. I planned for only two days of revision for math and two days for physics and mind you,it's two half days =p
As for Econs, im still trying my best to learn the answering technique,guess it's somehow like SS,once you grasp the skill,you own the test. Oh ya,MDM Amelia Heng,searching for your name to see who's badmouthing you,right? Hahaz,im not badmouthing you though,lolz,you are a great teacher okay? *vomit
Tried doing a flow chart for organic chem and i realised.... YAWN,it makes me sleepy. I shall assign one whole week for chem intensive -.-

Actually nothing much to blog about, life without a girlfren is boring,Lolz, I actually led 18 years of boring life. Anyway,watched Harold & Kumar 2, had a good time laughing, it really deserved to be M18 with all the religious stuff and nudity. I would love to have the Osama dart board at home XD

So that pretty sums up everything of my boring little life

Sigh,deceived by so many 后面像 chiobu ,前面像 laobu on the trains and shopping malls nowaday -.-

2008-04-24T23:44:00.003+08:00

Don't know how to start this at all

Surprised that im still alive and kicking after all these months. The past five months passed like a dream. Well,both irony and sarcasm both set in at the same time. Hard to elaborate on why. Deduce wadever way you want.

Anyway, I know im reaching my physical limit already,but touch wood, im not dying yet. Been really weak physically the past few weeks. You will know it when you find climbing stairs in NJ torturous. Moreover, im waking up with pain in the back every night these few days. Not to mention the old knee cap injury incurred years ago. Study break is coming to gimme my physical cool down but it will break my mental limit -.-

Having to work myself physically and mentally for five months almost 7 days per week is no joking matter. No matter what people says, I will not give up what i doing currently. When you saw a troupe established for decades, screaming for people to come and help dance for some people,yet no one is willing to help. Are they that busy? No. It just pure laziness and selfishness. I know what we can learn due to the packed event schedule is limited and the training is hectic, just becos of that,many are unwilling to commit. I hate ungrateful people who forget their "roots". Laoshi taught us so many things yet when he sought help, those who are willing to help is always the usual one. That's why i promised no matter how tired i am,i will not give up. Laoshi told me "你累，我也累，但是你有看到我放棄過嗎？"

AND NO,im not hoping to gain pity or to be treated like a hero. Even if nobody appreciating what i have done,i do not care. All i seek is just a little more cooperation, I know im not a good leader, but b4 you push all the blame to one person, have you asked yourself how much you have really contributed? Who would wish to always check back a million times to get a simple thing done?

Also hope to apologize to those who are disappointed but.... No matter what, I will persevere on, let my mistake be my shield against more of such mistake. I will not forsake my dream and my honor just because im tired. If these legs failed me, I will continue crawling with my arms, If my arm failed me, I will journey on,wriggling with my body, when it comes to the time when my body failed me, i will bite my way thru til that's nothing left in me. That's my stubbornness .

2008-04-18T00:26:00.002+08:00

Have been talking about this yet taken no action, I have finally changed a blogskin!!!
Decided that black is too eerie and gloomy so switched to a light based skin.
Thx a million to goh shi bin for helping the html noob.
Anyway,nothing much to update about,since im so damn tired that my productivity of anything is at most 10% right now.
Will try to update when i find the time >.<

2008-04-08T17:56:00.002+08:00

Back for another post on FF VII,lolz,wad makes it great is that its plot amazingly twisted together for the stages for events for FF VII and Advent Children. Having to compose a plot to match that of another created almost ten years ago was no an easy task. Of course, all the wonderful cutscenes brings out the essence of the plot and touched your heart like all movie too. It was really sad when Aerith waited four long years yet never get to see Zack again and how Cissnei never get to tell Zack her real name -.- Of course,Zack final words to Cloud and before he return to the earth was amazing =)
Here's the review from gamspot:

Crisis Core: Final Fantasy VII achieves a striking balance of old and new, and juggles fan service with pure role-playing satisfaction. It's striking how these elements have been shaped into such an appealing and emotionally affecting prequel. There are some new characters and plenty of fan favorites too, such as Cloud, Tifa, and Aerith. However, the characters you're most likely to empathize with are unlikely ones, including protagonist Zack, and Sephiroth, who is complex, troubled, and even sometimes likable. The way their personal stories weave in and out of each other--and set the stage for the events in Final Fantasy VII--makes Crisis Core not just the finest role-playing experience available on the PSP, but also one of the best Japanese RPGs in years.

Zack's journey is one of the franchise's most memorable.
Zack isn't new to the franchise, but he was a mere flashback in Final Fantasy VII, which may not make him seem like the best choice of leading man for a prequel to one of the best RPGs ever created. Yet he's as interesting as any Square Enix star, and transcends the usual spiky-haired heroism and teenage angst with an uncommon maturity that develops as the game continues. Revealing almost any plot point could be a spoiler; the Gaia world is rich with mythology and complex character motivation. What's important is how the characters interact, change, and grow. Scenes between Zack and Cloud are both effortless and poignant, and stem directly out of Zack's most impressive character traits: trust and loyalty. As each plot thread twists together and the game reaches its inevitable conclusion, your heart will soften and you may shed a few tears. Crisis Core tells a memorable and exciting tale, but more importantly, it makes you care about its characters, even if you are new to the lore. The game's final scenes are amazing and heartfelt, and one sequence in particular that brilliantly mingles gameplay with narrative is one of the most incredible and moving moments in role-playing history.
The game's stunning cutscenes have an immeasurable effect on the emotionally resonant story. There is a harmonious mix of prerendered cinematics and in-engine cutscenes, and both were created with precision. Dramatic camera angles frame Crisis Core's greatest moments, from earth-shaking soliloquies to the quiet pauses Zack and Aerith share. There is a standout scene in which Sephiroth comes into deep focus using a cinematography technique familiar to Alfred Hitchcock fans. This kind of range is rare in cutscenes, even in RPGs, yet it's never forced or overdone here. The quality is further enhanced by incredible voice acting. Past Final Fantasies have sometimes suffered from awkward English voice-overs, but each actor here delivers the right degree of emotion at the right time, which in turn gives weight to the story. As Zack matures, you can hear the newfound confidence replace his adolescent arrogance; when Angeal tells Zack that he's just a little more important than his sword, you can hear a subtle grin in his deep, commanding baritone.

Im so bored eh? Doing stuff like that,guess it's for me to relax >.<

2008-04-08T00:22:00.003+08:00

Finally completed my Final Fantasy VII : Crisis Core. The whole point of playing is to see the plot only -.-
After everything,im still very puzzled about wad's the story trying to get at. Having played thru the original FF VII when i was still primary school ( spent a lot of time conquering Ruby and Emerald Weapon,the strongest boss) and watching the advent children many times. I'm still very puzzled,even tried reading thru the chatlog for this game. Still doesn't understand wad's the gift of goddess Genesis refering to. Wad happened to Genesis? And thsi link to the three SOLDIER guys in advent children.. It's a lot of question marks!!! Maybe if i find the time,i shld replay the original Final Fantasy VII again.
Anyway, Genesis look like a very cool baddie, Zack is so cool!!! AND I still want Cloud's hairdo, I don't mind people calling me dumb blonde -.-
I realised, I'm no longer addicted to playing game just to beat this secret boss or wadsoever but im very intrigued by their plots,many which are very good,that's why i liked RPG so much,and crisis core have many cut scenes that matched that of the best of the best movies!!!
Oh,yet another cutscene,hahaz, They should re-make FF VII with good graphics,it will be a seller =) Both Aerith andTifa are so beautifully animated (drawn?) Heard that they analyse real human hair in order to accomplish such effect. I go sleep le,that's all =)

2008-04-02T20:35:00.002+08:00

I know I've been pretty lazy recently (for a month) Nothing interesting happened recently anyway -.-
Lemme see, there's he wu gong ming during march hols and ...
Seriously injured my back and because of the injured back,i dislocated my toe -.-
Despite the injury,managed to pull off the stunts in the performance.
Okay,that's all for the depressing stuff. The injury havent totally recover yet though.

Nothing much happened except go school,study and practise lor, only interesting thing might be I sent stupid msg to random girls on april fool day,telling them i love them and ask if they love me -.- Got some interesting reply but most are boring =p

Okay, at least i updated,lolz.

我知道故事不会太曲折
我总会遇见一个什么人
陪我过没有了她的人生
成家立业之类的等等
她做了她觉得对的选择
我只好祝福她真的对了
爱不到我最想要爱的人
谁还能要我怎样呢
我爱的人不是我的爱人
她心里每一寸都属于另一个人
她真幸福幸福得真残忍
让我又爱又恨她的爱怎么那么深

我爱的人她已有了爱人
从他们的眼神说明了我不可能
每当听见她或他说「我们」
就像听见爱情永恒的嘲笑声

她做了她觉得对的选择
我只好祝福她真的对了
爱不到我最想要爱的人
谁还能要我怎样呢
我爱的人不是我的爱人
她心里每一寸都属于另一个人
她真幸福幸福得真残忍
让我又爱又恨她的爱怎么那么深
我爱的人她已有了爱人
从他们的眼神说明了我不可能
每当听见她或他说「我们」
就像听见爱情永恒的嘲笑声
每当听见她或他说「我们」
就像听见爱情永恒的嘲笑声

Even if it cost me everything
I just hope to bless you with a lifetime of happiness

2008-03-06T23:24:00.002+08:00

Hahaz,it's the same old boring topic again!!! Econs test tmr,inclusive of a chapter not taught to us by lecturer at all,we are supposed to study it ourselves -.-
Anyway,enough of the boring topic in case someone say im gloomy again =p
Yea,there is donuts from DONUT FACTORY again!!! IN OUR SCHOOL,really love those people who did this sort of enterpeneur competition thing. There's Subway cookie last week. Seriously, I bet I don't mind surviving on donuts for the whole week =p
Nothing to update about,since school is so boring but.... TMR is liberation day yet again and this liberation day is special,cos it come with a package of a one week holiday,hahaz.
Got to go revise on my notes le,RAWR.
Not gloomy le right?lolz

2008-03-02T20:59:00.003+08:00

I'm supposed to be studying for chemistry test tmr and i havent touch anything. But im not really in the mood to study recently,baahz...
Anyway,realised i've been quite lost ever since i entered jc last year... Been thinking a bit recently, I realised the reason finally,cos there's only one place where i feel i belong,I do not know when this feeling will diminish,but right now,it's still burning within me. As for my jc,sad to say,i'm doing just the bare minimum.I'm a stubborn person who like to stick with my own way of doing stuff,since majority canot agree with my way of dealing with stuff,I don't want to do anything i don't like to please people nor go my own way that agitate people.FULLSTOP
anyway,beside the gloomy topic,i'm been busy playing my psp. Really looking forward to this year ndp and for A lv to be over. Just when mr yong is not here and i could pon contact,caal and gc,i have CIP!!! ZOMG,i have so much cip hours already and i feel this cip system is so screwed. People are only doing it for the hours,if im doing something like chingay which i enjoy,i don't really mind,but tutoring young kids!!! Not that bad la actually,just that i couldn't go back nan hua on wednesday =p Worse still,i couldn't see zhipeng attempt to make me lose my bet,lolz.
How i wish i can be like _______ , doing something i like for life. However,he's totally not treasuring it,wasting his life just like that.WTH
Alright,after some whining,it's time to get back to serious work,MUG KEE LUI MUG!!!

2008-02-15T01:05:00.002+08:00

It's valentine day and love's in the air
Although it's rather thin in nj as compard to ac.
Even as a j1 who mix around with little people, the heart warming greetings and presents are definitely touches my heart more. Otherwise,it might be all the intense mugging that turning my heart into stone. You people must be thinking "Kee Lui? Mugging?" Ya,right,I'm working hard,no longer finding excuses for myself to not do well,something which i agree with mr yong. Recently the atmosphere in the class in getting worse with mr yong. He spent an hour in class today to address this issue, I couldn't say it's all wrong but the individuality that make us unique is ignored in his speeches. It was really cool how he said he teach us to be disciplined and motivated instead of just teaching contextual stuff. But it seems that most of the class does not think the same way -.- The heated argument carries on online where I receive multiple email regarding this issue -.-
Oh well,doesn't want to spoil the mood,let me repeat myself again. It's valentine day and I bought a PSP slim for my secret valentine!!! WHICH IS MYSELF XD I happened to picked my own name =p
Anyway,had practices in the afternoon and we were practically doing nothing,rushed my instructor to finish practice and rushed off to SHAW at orchard to realise most who supposed to meet up are late and the show we wanted to watch were all sold out. Spent some time crapping there b4 some went off so the rest of us bought tix for kung fu dunk and had dinner. The show was okay. The plot really sucks to the core and i give it zero star but it manage to hire many famous comedian to create funny scenes. Really love the part where Jay took his own picture and act like a maniac inside the photo booth and made those photos into a series of pictures. SO SWEET!!! LOLZ,but i feel that part came too early. Anyway,the dunk scenes were really cool,and for those two i give it a five star so on average it's about 3 and a half stars? After the match was totally dumb, should have just end it there...
Anyway,I don't hope for much,just to re-establish the links of a normal human being,to be able to talk.... lmao,most of you wouldn't understand,A BIg THANKS to all three in DHKS >.<

2008-02-13T00:10:00.000+08:00

Finally back online -.-
Both my desktop and laptop crashed during CNY,wad a disaster, not only am I deprived of the once in a year chance to see my relative and bai nian, my mom is overseas and my house instantly became a pig slum.
In the end,I went to Raffles Marina and worked, was expecting some grand chinese banquet since it's second day of new year but it's Muslim prayer,by the same group of people that did it last time. I have affinity with them huh? Anyway,nothing wrong with it except for the facts that they always ordered very little food,insufficient for even themselves. This deprived us of the privelege of eating delicious food. Even if we get to eat,it was curry curry and curry again and again. They have far too many breaks and each break they drinked coffee and tea,there were 150 of them,some can drink more than a cup and there's only two part time that day,derek and me. End up spending most time in chart room,sitting beside the sofa,watching tv and washing cutlery... Lucky derek was there to keep me entertained.
Went laoshi's house on the third day of new year. Got pang seh-ed early in the morning,it was so awkard,one guy and three girls in a mrt carriage with no common topic to talk about -.-
Anyway,spend most of the time sitting and stoning until the crowds start to clear. Went into the room and gambled a bit,once in a year,nvm de lah. Lady Luck was on my side and I managed to win some money,agreed to treat my brothers to dinner but in the end, no one went for dinner -.-
Sunday was absolute slackness,so not used to having nothing to do on sunday =p
School on monday was okay,dance was rather slack since everyone was still in the festive mood. Went to eat at mac and talked a bit with bin. After which,my brain seems to malfunction and was in a chaotic state. Nvm,managed to sort out my thoughts because of that too.
Tuesday was supposed to be a peaceful day but an heated argument went on in the classroom. Mr yong was unhappy about our unwillingness to put in effort although i doubt so and asked each of us to stand up to give our comment on a common aspiration for the class. Some disagreed with him and totally rebutted his theory of yong-ism,forcing him to his boiling point,he totally stared at me with his fiery eyes when it was my turn. I don't wanna get into any more troubles with teachers le,so i just said what i feel and add on some things that he will be pleased to hear. However,he stormed off when the lesson ended -.-
Received an email from my Civics Rep and Physics Rep and it seems Mr yong given up on our class. It doesn't affect me much since Physics is one of my forte, jsut hope to have les clashes as such in the future....

2008-02-07T01:22:00.001+08:00

IT's OFFICIALLY CHINESE NEW YEAR!!!
not that i really care but it's a great time for us to rest and rejuvenate =)
Anyway,the CNY performance in NJ was okay i guess,not much hiccups and the comment was generally positive. However,missed the chance to look at the nan hua dancers perform.By the time we were back,almost everyone had left already =(
Saw some seniors that we haven't seen of ages and chatted a bit. Didn't see much familiar faces going back to nan hua(i actually typed coming back initially) so in the end,went to clem central with sb,dal,daryl and weiyang to have lunch.Went home and it's all boring stuff after that.
Finally watched DaVinci Code after such a long time.I actually went thru the hassle of looking for the subtitle and minimising and scrolling it down munually as i watched the movie.However,I guess it was worth all the trouble.In my opinion,it was one of the greatest movie I watched so far,not any comedy nor romance could compared to the mind intriguing and mystery probing story that attacks and question the very foundation of history. Although I hate studying history back in secondary school,i actually love seeking out the contents that history offered. Often in history there existed many myths and legends. These myths and legends must have an origin and I often tried to find out more about their nature of existence which is most of the time,vaguely decribed on the net. Anyway,the content might be offensive and I understand why some voted for that film to be banned but I think it's really a very great film.I had tried borrowing the book from jieyim and read it but someone stole it in the process and I didn't finish reading it =(
I'm really on a movie spree and was hoping to complete all the movies that i had missed out.
Next will be memoirs of geisha i think.Asked someone to watch it with me back then but he or she wasn't free so i downloaded the movie,but in the wrong language without subtitles in the past =p
Gonna download nightmare b4 christmas too,played the game but haven't had the chance to watch the movie,I liked musical a lot too =)

I really had problem expressing myself properly so...
Just in case my friends misunderstood me
Yea,I still like that someone
But that doesn't mean I want to be with her
As i had given up hope long ago

2008-02-05T22:25:00.000+08:00

Yea,I declare it HOLIDAY!!!
Hahaz,actually I went into holiday mood since last week,neglecting all the homework =p
Anyway,in the past few days,I watched two movies,Sweeny Todd and 27 Dresses. Sweeny Todd had a short but wonderful and gruesome plot.The whole story is depicted sorta like a musical. Really love the song where they keep singing Joanna,Joanna =) It's really wonderful when their voices harmonised. 27 Dresses was an okay movie,felt that it was a bit overrated,not as touching as I expected.The third and fourth is coming soon,功夫灌篮 and maybe CJ7?
我不卖豆腐(豆腐)豆腐(豆腐)
我在武功学校里学的那叫功夫
功夫(功夫)功夫(功夫)
Anyone want to watch kung fu?No one asked me so far =p

Anyway,I wanted to post this earlier on but I've forgotten
It's about a best fren I had since I was a child
We're classmate since kindergarden and known each other for as long as I remembered
We remained as classmates all the way til Primary 6
That's when things started to change
His brother made friends with a bunch of good for nothings and learnt to smoke,gamble and play truancy (His brother and my brother were classmates for years too)
Eventually,he got led astrayed by his brother and started playing truancy
It caused so much trouble for everyone
His mum has to go around looking for him as he did not go home sometimes
I had to listen to his mum nag too -.-
Anyway,he is way smarter than me,his da sao ye pi qi also worse than mine,temper also worse than mine =p
Anyway,despite the fact that he pon-ned the whole P6
despite giving PSLE not a damn (i looked back during exams and see him sleeping)
He scored a 210 and went to Bukit Merah Express Stream where he continued to mix with that bunch of friends
After many years,he somehow managed to wake up from those nonsense and took his O'lv last year
He scored a 9,not sure whether it's l1r5 or l1r4 but it's a very good score nevertheless
I'm really happy for him =)
His brother is still dreaming to become a superstar though,DREAM ON

Lolz,my mom laughing at jay chou's tofu song,I keep repeating it =p
Anyway,just noticed,this is the 100th post XD

2008-02-03T01:28:00.000+08:00

Yet another week passed,this is becoming a weekly update -.-
Anyway,school was normal,except for the fact that i've completed my math and physics to the extent that im on par with the speed of the lecturer On another hand,I totally don't understand CHEM XD So i decided to not do the tutorial since i have no idea how to and wait for mr WEE!!! to go thru.Oh yea,my gp tutor forgot about that dumb grammer book =) So basically,conclusion: I can slow down my pace le.
Dance is normal recently,except for the facts that i got pissed off by the costume stuffs,I think im too stubborn but I like it this way =p
Guess I'll just elaborate on today(yesterday)
Had physics SPA so went sch early,very early.On the way in,i noticed those two bright star like object again.The two's very near and is extremely eye catching in the night sky.They used to be vertically aligned but no longer the case,the one on top is brighter and does not twinkle,i suspect it is a geostationary satellite.... OMG,too much physics -.-
Anyway,SPA was okay except for the last question which i gone too in depth and missed out on the crucial points -.-
Practices in the morning was rather slack since Da Shu not here.Go thru chinese new year and i jsut watched them dance,then go thru a few times of gu yun.Hahaz,im finally able to spin while carrying yan jia =p After dance,went Mad Jack and ate,was really unhappy about the service,the speed at which they serve food and the hygiene -.-
It took them eons to serve a single dish and the lady was so rude,it was their fault that they mixed up the order and they should as a form of apology compensate the us the dishes missed out but instead they told us they have served all the dishes we have ordered.RAWR.Omg,and there was a fly in my mayonaise which turn me off,i threw my burger on the fly =(
Walked to serene centre and decided to settle nature call when i saw 961 and decided to run after it,failed by several meters... could have manged if i haven't walk up to serene centre. Took a look at the buses i can take and i neglected 855 and when 855 came,i stodd staring at it for a long time and i only realised that i could take it home after it went passed -.- Went home,bathed and left for PA.
Chingay was practically okay except for the fact that once i reached,i have to run around settling stuff and costumes.I didn't even have the time to pee Xp It was supposed to be a happy day until someone spoilt my day.Can't believe I just walked away like this,hahaz,after evaluating on my own actions,i realised im trying to avoid direct conflict. Don't feel like saying stuff here to redeem myself,if he thinks im wrong,then im wrong since he's BIGGER than me... Oh ya,im not stressed or wadever,jsut a bit pissed off. Spent most of the time chatting with the helpers.
And... It's not that we're showing off but we simply have too much energy left after the preview since these year's chingay is so laxing and tmr no practice so i can afford to use up those energy =p
The other 3 guys ps-ed me and went home in hann bin's father's car so i accompanied zx,keon and isabella to holland to eat.Woah,finally understand why they said isabella whine a lot.It's really a lot -.-
Zzz,i feel so weird when i stayed til late night.It's quite proven that im nocturnal and because of the enrgy surge at night,i think a lot or utilise my brain more.All of em are not solid thoughts but just some weird feelings i have.Do not know how to describe also.
Anyway,I hate to say this but i only listen to those who i respect so if u want to lecture or ask me to do something,ask someone of the right capability to,I like to be straight forward so flame me if any of you think the previous sentence sound arrogant.I'm definitely bu shuang and to me,this is the best way of venting it out =)

2008-01-26T19:42:00.000+08:00

YEEAA,it's weekend once again,sunday is coming and it's making me feel alive =)
I recently realised.. I hate having the needs to have props in my hand while dancing. Hahaz,my actions feel so restricted because of those props =p The thinking back,even when I was in nan hua where there was frequent use of big props,I will be the one not using them and dancing with only my legs and my arms -.- The only time i guess it's zhulin bah.
Zzz,my flu getting worse,it is really a bad idea to sleep with a jacket and a blanket while leaving my head exposed to the consistent surge of air from the fan (I always set to non-osciallating mode)
Oh ya,im totally in love with meiji milk once again,the cocoa flavour milk. Worse thing is,all the supermarket near my house doesn't sell the big big bottle of meiji cocoa flavour milk!!! I end up having to buy the small bottle from sch everyday which is like so exp compared to the big bottle. I drank three on friday XD
Don't really have much to blog about since everyday is mugging and mugging... Oh ya,my 美味关系 is not fully uploaded yet =( Guess I'll have to switch to other serial shows for the time being.
Everyone is like so busy recently,I'M SO BORED,SOMEONE TALK TO ME WHEN I'M ONLINE =p

2008-01-24T20:23:00.000+08:00

I Believe-范逸臣
I Believe 当我在你家门口下雨了你看了也会难过
I Believe 你不说话的时候也是一种其实你在回应我
虽然不曾说相信你正在懂就算牵的不是我的手我不真的难过
不知道在高兴什么你的笑容有时候也宁可当作你在为我加油
不知道在妄想什么只告诉自己 I Believe 你总会看到我
在某个时候想让你陪伴的是我

I Believe 没有回音的时候只不过正好你在电话中
I Believe 语音信箱的沉默也是一种其实你在倾听我
虽然不曾说相信你正在懂就算牵的不是我的手我真的不难过
不知道在高兴什么你的笑容有时候也宁可当作你在为我加油
不知道在妄想什么只告诉自己 I Believe 你总会看到我
在一切之后留在你身边的是我

那也许太久的也是冲动在你身后的独角戏聚光灯没亮过
怀疑是自己编造的内容你从不真的认得我

不知道在高兴什么你的笑容有时候也宁可当作你在为我加油
不知道在妄想什么只告诉自己 I Believe 一定会有结果
在很久以后留在你身边的是我
陪着你的人是我

The greatest pain is not able to share the joy with those you love

2008-01-18T23:18:00.000+08:00

Hahaz,not in the right frame of mind since i just woke up.
Slept around the moment i reach home,oops,it sound so wrong... I actually slept at diff location of the house,from sofa to my mom's bed and blah blah blah...
Start to wonder if my miraculous time table for dancing really work
Monday - Nj Dance
Tuesday - Rest
Wednesday - Nan Hua Dance
Thursday - Nj Dance
Friday - Nan Hua Dance
Saturday - Nj Dance
Sunday - PA Dance
Was comtemplating whether to ask laoshi if there was anything to fill up my saturday afternoon or evening but now i start to wonder if i can take it.I planned it as if I'm a machine that do not need repair and services -.-
I guess afternoon napping much better than napping in the night (do anyone nap in the night?)
I woke up in quite the bad mood. It was lucky no one di siao-ed me after i woke up,they would incur my wrath.
Well,i'm not really in a bad mood,just feeling empty..... Izzit my stomach?
In the course of typing this,I even forgot what I typed in the beginning of this post...
SHIT,I'm BURNING OUT!!!

I feel like...
Having a punching bag to release all energy stored inside
Shouting into a blackhole to release all the unhappiness
Finding a someone that is willing to listen to my rants (not a gf)

It's this kind of time where I hope im not born a guy -.-

2008-01-15T00:16:00.000+08:00

I'VE DONE ZERO HOMEWORK TODAY ... BUT ... THAT'S NOT THE POINT
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I'M OFFICIALLY EIGHTEEN!!!
Thank you everyone for the well wishes
Special Thanks to Shi Bin, Hann Bin, Dallan,Wei Hong, Koon Hui, Daryl, Pei Xuan, Hann Qian, Alyssa, Yueli, Htet Maw and Yong Shin for the wonderful present XD
Not to forget the surprise I got when the gang suddenly appeared in NJ today =p
And of course to my forever evil twins Lin Yan Jia

Hahaz, I love everyone, MUACKS!!! =p

2008-01-14T00:16:00.000+08:00

Oh I just remembered wad I wanted to say earlier on,now my daily schedule is like rather fixed. Weekends are meant for resting and dancing and studying is only left til at night (Have i said this b4?) More imptly,one episode of 美味关系 a day,wootz.What I like about this show is the plot and how it does not only revolve around love but also around a passion which in this case is cooking and food.The food totally entices me,the desciption really make me drool >.<

2008-01-13T22:31:00.000+08:00

Hmm,don't really know wad to blog about and im pretty tired,guess i will just update on my mugging life.
It has been yet another week and it passes like ... rather fast? The longest day is always the first two days,lolz,my timetable is really weird? Monday is the longest and friday is the shortest and it's a gradual decrease for each day between onday and friday =p Mugging is okay,spent much time completing holiday homework,couldn't find my chem holiday worksheet so i couldn't be bothered with it,understanding the new chapter seems to be fine,a lot better than last year i guess,with all the good teachers. Guidance and Counselling session with Mr Yong is like OMG,other people may think he is so freakish with that huge bulky muscle and ridiculous principle in life but I think it's really cool.However,some part i don't really agree though. He said something like "Yes,studying might be your priority as a student but if you study for the sake of yourself,for making a lot of money,YOU can give up studying but if you study for the sake of others,the sake of benefiting and giving back to the society,then studies will be your priority". He also said something about not feeling tired if you study for the sake of others. These are great resolution but as Mdm Sia previously said "Too much of anything is never good". That's why i couldn't agree of putting your passion as one of your priority,I think that you must have a balance in your commitment to the society and your passion.Btw,his training schedule is insanely INSANE -.-
Bet you guys must be bored from the mugging topic,shall move on to dance.Managed to "La" finish the CNY item on monday.although I think it could be better but I'm afraid it might get too confusing for the dancers so might as well work with wad we had and diao it to amke it better.
Wednesday was rather slack as after training a bit here and there then the other not involved in aristal was released and we end up playing some kind of mass game,omg,im the second one to be out,was trying so hard to sabo yanjia and end up killing myself =p
Managed to convince the laoshi men to have another item for aristal,gonna dance a item call 鼓韵宏程 and our original guys item is called 远音,the all guys item is really short but it require us to grasp the feeling of the dance and perfect our actions a lot. Hope they will add in the other j2 dancers dancing the fan dance into the fourth item which is the new item cause they might feel weird if they only get to dance one item.
Sunday was PA and it was okay except for the weather and the lack of jibengong and training. Was quite happy with the three conseutive backflips i did although my path is not really straight.Wad's impt is I can feel the strength and I'm sure that one can do more than 8 which is my limit -.- The joint area between my thighs and butt really hurts,hurts while walking and of course jumping around,cannot figure out the problem but I guess we are so used to all these that it doesn't affect us much in daily life.I'm just afraid when I go out for full body check-up for army,they will diagnose more than 5 problems with this joint or that joint.Two obvious one is my shoulders,the bone in front,slightly above the chest muscle,rotation of my right shoulder doesn't seem that "Shun" and my left shoulder,this time it's the bone behind,same kind of problem.I just hope that there is one problem which is not so serious but allow me to get out during weekdays (9 to 5)
Can't remember wad I wanted to say,old age symptoms catching up on me =(
Anyway,my Birthday is coming,gonna be officially eighteen and eligible to do lotta things,muahahaz.Speaking of which,the word Birthday make me feel so stupid -.-

希望与绝望只在那一线之差
当幻想破灭剩下的就只有绝望
什么都不知是否也是一种幸福

2008-01-07T19:56:00.000+08:00

Hahaz,this might be a bit late,NEW YEAR RESOLUTION!!!
First of all,SCHOLARSHIP,I'm so going to get myself a scholarship,my dad can afford my university fee but it's only enough for me.Wad about my silly brother? He's 21 and living life as if it is a fairytale (people don't need to do anything but play eh?) and I think I gonna save this sum of money for him in case he feel like taking up any courses. And I'm really confident with the scholarship,I gonna own everyone with my overwhleming CIP hours,community commitment,position in CCA (jealous eh?) and my miserable position in class -.- And of course,my results in A'lv,I promised myself I would at least get 3As,1Bs but ultimately the goal is still the 4As (I'm only aiming for a B for GP though)

Speaking of studies,I have yet to introduce my new civics tutor,it's none other than mr yong!!! The superhuman muscular freakish canoeist teacher MR YONG.Speaking of the devil =p
First lesson of mr yong was a 40 minutes motivating speech,his way of life,his value and etc and not to forget,his GODLIKE physics notes which contain a famous quote every page,he even specifically asked us to amend one quote which repeated itself in page 2 and 3.Look at the seriousness!!! And i'm not joking or trying to be sarcastic,this year will be a chiong-ing year for me and im sure with tutors like him,it will be OWNage. Of course,all my other tutors has been changed.
Got a veteran math teacher who taught in nj for 15 years,he speak jokes that can freezes everyone in the class without twicthing an eyebrow,冷面笑将!!!
Chem tutor is Mr WEE(how come all my chem tutors' surname so.. the alst was YIP) Well,he's definitely able to teach despite looking a bit like conan and a bit "gong" however he... 笑里藏刀!!! Catch you unaware and poof,where he demand the homework smiling -.-
Econs tutor is 1324365436546 times better than the last,it's none other than Ms Amelia Heng (wow,we are so heng) ,the content she taught me in a single lesson is defintely 4 times more than every lesson i had last year. 速战速决 =p
Shall give mr yong a chinese term too. 大肢佬!!!

And I planned my schedule this year,estimated that i reach home at 7 plus everyday,dinner,slack a bit,bathe,homework and TV!!! Wootz,Don't underestimate the power of consistent work okay? Hahaz,i'm currently on 美味关系 =p

Second on the list!!!
DANCE!!!
First of all is to settle the school side and next come performance in PA(D.I.Y)
Realised I wasted yet another year last year,not much improvement =p
So I will train train train this year =)
Other than that,I hope to achieve good result in may so laoshi would agree to let me dance NDP,this year concept sound way way way better than last year's -.-
Not to forget,once a Nan Hua Dancers,forever a Nan Hua Dancers,no matter how rotten things are now in Nan Hua(the school),we grads will cont to try our best to create a barrier to protect dance from these stupid diseases Xp
From now on,I'm free on every friday!!! Wootz,released on 12.30,go back nan hua have lunch and do some homework and wait for dance to start
I really wanted to go back on WEDNESDAY,want to take a look at the buns and backcomb =p
Hope wang laoshi changed practice to thursday instead,although it's highly not possible,since... wednesday is CCA day... Just hope lah
And this year definitely looks good for Nan Hua Dance Society,finally the plague is gone XD

Thirdly... BUT that's no THIRD,hahaz,nope nope, Love or relationship is not included in my resolutions for 2008,im happy enough with the way i am,IT'S ALL IN THE MENTALITY,RAWR,it will come when it want to come lah... but these threes remind me of what I asked weihong to divine(izzit used like this =p) for me -.-

Anyway,I really screwed the blogskin up ever since 12332544543 eons ago so any kind soul can offer their help? Xp

2008-01-01T21:27:00.000+08:00

First of all

Maths
1) Revision Package
2) Probability Tutorial
3) Vectors Tutorial

Physics
1) Holiday Worksheet
2) File for Mr Yong
3) Self-Study Chapters that will be Uploaded in KM near end of Dec hols (Not veri sure about this..)

Chem
1) Holiday Worksheet
2) Ionic Equilibria II Tutorial

Econs
1) Online Test
2) Econs Essay (for scoring less than 23)

General Paper
1) Grammar Book (Selected Pages - Most of Them)
2) Worksheet about building a reader portfolio
3) Read Widely

And not to forget,i skipped two post-exam tutorial (who the hell have the mood after exams?) and I have failed to even locate the notes let alone read them -.-

Hahaz,on a brighter note,the teachers might not collect the homework though im worried about the physics file thing,Mr Yong known to be strict,and under the fearsome intimidation of his muscles,i bet the yield of the physics file will be near 100%

And on a even brighter note.......
drumz roll....

It might appear that I did absolutely nothing concerning school work when A's less than a year away,the fact is that I have been secretly training myself in one area that's related,it's the absolute ability to not feel sleepy even after one whole night of activity,this skill is absolutely essential in the coming year which i need to attend school in the morning/afternoon,have activities in the afternoon/night and mug my heart out in the night.

My dad bought me a new phone,w910i,wanted to get something more expensive but ...
The phone was great except for the lagginess,maybe it's because of the theme that causes too much animation,my phone lags when i typed msg with the media player on =(
The pros of the phone:The stereo widening allows it to blast music to a distance and the colour contrast of the phone is really good,love it with my final fantasy wallpaper =p
They gave me a 2GB memory stick which allow me to store so much songs =p

Went to alyssa's house for countdown and had steamboat,the chicken meat was omg omg omg de nice,must be some high grade meat,the gan bei that is cooked on the hot plate is simply delicious,the sauce that came out from the gan bei made the chicken even tastier =)
And the bao bei hann bin brought was great =p
With all the delicious food,i manged to stuff four bowls of rice into this slim waist of mine,lmao

Started playing the Wii that zi xiang brought and it was absolute highness,weihong must be hopping mad that he missed it. I bet Wii will be the next in thing in country,the only problem is that it's graphic is still very simplistic as i think combining action stimulation and high resolution image is going to require a very very costly machine with current technology,however,I'm still going to buy my PSP as it provide me with mobile entertainment =)

Getting back to the countdown,was playing mahjong when the countdown begin,party poppersss began to ransack thru the room and not to forget the stand in champagne,two bottles of sparkling water XD After all the highing for the countdown,we get back to the Wii-ing and mahjong-ing,shall skip the details as,had really bad luck all the way until dallan and hann qian swapped place and i won four consecutive game =)

Slept at 8.30 after everyone slept and my position was really uncomfortable since i slept on a sofa with only a single seat and which has wooden handles -.- I woke up at 9.30 because it's uncomfortable =(

Anyway,after dallan and hann bin left,we continued to mahjong and Wii then home sweet home =)

In a blink of eyes,year 2007 is over and yet I felt I wasted another year,this feeling keep coming back but I guess it's this who make us grow and learn.

To all who are entering jc this year,have fun in your jc and do not fear this new beginning and refuse to accept the end of the previous journey.The end of a journey is a new beginning of another,It's just a course of nature.

And in less than two weeks time,I will turn 18*hint*hints!!!
And I'm officially legally able to do many stuff which I don't think i will do anyway -.-

The tune of a music give the first impression
The lyrics convey the meaning and feeling within the music
And the dance steps convey the feeling we had that mere words cannot

2007-12-25T23:42:00.000+08:00

Hmmm,nothing much to blog about
Christmas Eve,went to wet coast RC and played pool for a short while,went on to play bowling,oh yea,i'm getting the hang of it finally =) The last game was wootz =) 88 points in the first 5 balls,that was really good provided i never used to exceed hundred,start to rush thru the games and the last 5 balls wasn't as well played.Went queensway shopping centre to shop for bags,big one that can store a lot of stuff =p
The liverpool bag was really nice and it was only 69 bucks,the problem is ... it's liverpool!!! OMG,I felt like buying it and asking my mom to get rid of the liverpool logo =p
Went home slack and slept and went to dallan's house
Dotz,I actually went and waited at the wrong condominium,WestBay and WestCove -.-
Played monopoly and asshole tai di and was busy mass smsing people =p
Went and spend some bucks at Mac then back to dallan's house to sleep -.-
Oh ya,i forgot to mention that we watched protege too.
Everybody woke up at 10 plus wheareas i woke up at 9 plus,stoned and stoned b4 i decided to play DotA with the AI.After everyone woke up,we talk about random stuff and went back to dallan's house(another one),he ahve two apartments in the same condominium -.-
Didn't have any breakfast nor lunch and slacked around in dal's house and i end up falling asleep
I'm quite moody after I woke up so I didn't want to talk much,Argghh,the bubbletea shop auntie pissed me off,wanted mini pearls but she gave me normal one instead,when i told her,she gave me a shocked face and make no initiative to change it so i told her don't bother -.-
Watched 200 pounds beauty and it was a quite a nice show
It's somehow weird,the feeling i'm having,school's re-opening and it's christmas now but i'm cannot feel the air of the festival around me as if the whole world neglected the word festival,2 more minutes til christmas over,I do not have any wished,if there is really any,I hope for the night to never come =(

2007-12-23T22:50:00.000+08:00

Baah,I hate the darkness of the night,guess im nocturnal and use my brain more at night =p
Wanted to say this indirectly since a long time ago, liking someone doesn't mean wanting to be with that someone esp when I know it's two different world.
What I actually wanted to say is stop being so over sensitive,it has happened so long ago,like how the past meant nothing to you,it does the same to me.

2007-12-21T01:10:00.000+08:00

I'm like finally back?
Omg,this is becoming my catch phrase recently -.-
Let's see,went star gazing or meteor gazing,saw a total of nearly 50 shooting stars and one of which is extremely huge and is azure blue,it even something like sparks behind its trail =)
After star gaze,went winston bbq party on the 15th which happen to be ROD for NH dancers sec4'06 celebrated winston birthday and stayed over again. Did nothing but sleeping though -.-
Sunday,16th, went PA for chingay practice then went over to alyssa house to stay over,played a bit of cards and mahjong.Slept and slept and next morning(afternoon since we woke late) we played monopoly and then home sweet home. 4 day 3 night outing =p
Tuesday,dance practice and combined practice. Ermm,we are sorta outdated? All the new dance we dun noe and the old one only the few of us dance and we dun even remember the steps properly =p
Wednesday,dance practice and ROD for sec4'07,the dance was funny,Lolz. Wanted to bowl but was too exp after 6 so decided to pool. Chionged home get stuff and went over to alyssa's house again. Didn't watch the soccer match but i watched 881 but it was really.. BORING. Wonder wad kind of inspiration laoshi would be getting out of there(laoshi said he would be watching 881 to get his inspiration that day too) Hope he didn't see the last part when the lions came out,I don't want a repeat of the ASEAN summit (first time i got a really bad scolding from laoshi)
Woke up early at thursday and no one was awake so i stone-ed and stone-ed til everyone woke up,mahjong-ed and played badminton then home sweet home again
YEA,and that summarise everything nice and sweet =)
Racking brain juice over the chinese new year item now =(

2007-12-14T13:43:00.000+08:00

I guess I finally knocked myself awake from all the day dreaming =(
I shall share some day dreaming stuff i got.
I always imagine that one fine day, I would mysteriously receive a large sum of inheritance from some distant distant relative and a company
I always imagine that I will meet a pair of really rich couple that will take me in as their god-son one day and they will really dote on me cause they have no other children and I will inherit their company.
I always imagine that one day(while im still very young) I will create a new invention that allows energy conversion to be almost 100% effecient and all the major energy producing companies will approach me and I will allow them to use my technology but I will charge them per unit of energy produced and ah hah,I can live my life wadever way i want wif money constantly rolling in.
The above three is imagined because I hope that I have no need to worry for my future and can devote myself to dancing
The last which I fantasized about the most.... DRUM ROLLZ
One day,time will be reversed but i retain my memories and I will join laoshi when DI just started and I was still a little kid and from there I will dedicate my whole life to dancing. I will have a chance to dance my SYF once more and will help laoshi to make it even better and i will train my fellow batch of dancers to the extent that we will be shown great reverence as the best batch of dancers there ever was.

I know it's time to say this, BYE BYE La-La Land

I fear the uncertainty of the future
I fear the truth that dancing will not be my future
but I'll accept it and dance a lifetime worth of dances
Giving it my all,right here,right NOW

2007-12-14T02:43:00.000+08:00

Back from work and doesn't really feel like sleeping,
Work was fine,except that i missed the shuttle bus and had to took a cab but was still late for work -.-
Havent collect my pay yet and had to find a chance to get the transport fee for tonight back =p
I realised I really had been neglecting my schoolwork,Sae Cheong's email totally struck me. I promised from next year onward,I will be a good boy and do my homework properly
Right now,I'm regretting not applying for any H3 and im pretty sure i could get one for math or physics. It's has always been a worry to me,I'm worried that even if i did score well enough to get to university,my father would refuse to pay for it,and now wifout the h3,it's even harder to get my scholarship,Guess I just had to work duper hard next year
However,I still believe I can take up other activities during my A level period,I will try my best to fulfil both. This also mean there's no time for stoning next year,it's either i really rest,i study or i dance.

I need a medicine to stop myself from fantasizing
I still cannot believe that I felt such sorrow from reading a simple sentence, this time with the CONFIRMED chopped on it

2007-12-13T00:11:00.000+08:00

Argghh,blogger refused to let me post yesterday
Finished downloading my movies le,re-watched step up and wacthed LUST.CAUTION 0.o
However!!! The essence of the movie got cut hence ..... the movie wasn't really as good as we expected -.-
Hahaz,my golden compass couldn't play so i go ahead to watch my Lakehouse,ignoring the loophole caused by any time travelling movie,it was a very good movie.How all the parts and parcel could link up together in the end. Some questions any normal person would ask is,the story start by having someone(alex) knocked down by a vehicle and kat saw it and this sort of start the sending of the letter thru time. However,alex got knocked down because he is eager to meet kat and dashed across the road and at that point of time,that alex already been receiving leter from kat.So which is the start of the whole event? I guess this might be the same as the egg and hen question -.-
Nevertheless,it was a very good movie that can touch people's heart
One quote from the movie "If you love me,please wait for me"
Next,Music and Lyrics =)

2007-12-10T00:47:00.000+08:00

Argghh,I'M VERY VERY PISSED.

Firstly,how do u get the DivoCodec thing to work? I installed it at several folder so many times yet I still failed to play my video =(
My Lust.Caution ......XD

Secondly,desktop lagging like hell, download rate extremely slow even after the restart, every page i go,i will need to accompany it wif one click of the refresh button and lastly, I couldn't see any tagboard since last week.

Thirdly, I hate my dad!!! My neighbour came back from Japan and bought us souvenir, they bought their maid there too!!! Their maid has been working for more than 15 years for them. The problem is, I questioned my dad when will there be such a trip for our family then he diam diam, so i asked him to gamble less and save up for a trip then he diam diam again... He switched over to sport channel and arsenal losing!!! =(
Why am I so sad that arsenal lost???
Cause my lousy father lost yet another 200 dollars in an instant =(
My mom has been treated like a free maid for as long as I remembered.
She work and earn money, do all the housework (partly my fault), pay for any possible FEE (utility bill,school fee,my pocket money,food,pay for all the meals and coupons for my father parking lot) and alot more and yet she didn't get a single holiday, the closest one consist of MY MOM going back to her hometown to visit her relative using HER OWN MONEY.
Worse still, I told him the desktop dying and we should buy a new one,he suggested using my brother's money to buy a new one, come on, my brother rolling in money slower than a beggar in NS and when i asked him to gamble less,he diam diam again.
GREAT father eh? He do nuts for the family, to me,he's more like a lousy chaffeur who send me to school. He better dies b4 he collect his CPF,if it ever land in his hand...
He will most probably
GAMBLE
FIND PROSTITUTE
GO KEEP A MISTRESS AGAIN
TREAT HIS GAMBLING FREN TO GOOD FOOD
GO ON A HOLIDAY HIMSELF

That's why i promised myself,if i ever gamble with money on non-festive season,whether izzit 4D, TOTO, Horse Betting, Soccer, Casino or mahjong, I gonna chop both my hands off.
That's why i promised myself that no matter how much I earn when i grow up, I'm not gonna give him a single cent,I will just send him to an old folk home and buy him a nice enough coffin.
That's why i promised myself,after i grew up and start having a family,I will save the best for them,plan for their future and make sure my children don't live with their grandpa.
Say I'm unfilial or wadever,he doesn't deserve it anyway.

the deep cut in my toe cracking open again,RAWR

2007-12-07T10:55:00.000+08:00

Rawr, this desktop is dying, time to psycho my dad to buy one more.
Another few days of holidays had passed and I realised... I totally forgotten about the holiday assignment XD
Preparation for anyhow art almost took up all my time recently and it seems that I had been stepping foot on PA for the last five days.
Hahaz,seems like su laoshi wu ya zhui seems to work, somehow, i keep bleeding, all are minor injuries but I think I might die from a lack of blood eventually -.-
Was really bored so I downloaded lotta movie, finished enchanted and it wasn't really that bad. Its plot is rather simple to the extent you can guess wad will happen next but it really brings out the feeling of how innocent love can be. As always,like other disney product,the prince and princess enjoy singing more than anything else -.-
Finally went to download my bleach opening and ending themes,I always forgot about it,gonna watch my stardust now le XD

2007-12-03T23:48:00.000+08:00

I'm back,like finally? AGAIN. Hahaz,I know I always said that =p
Wednesday, had practice in school and I felt my life has been shortened by 10^ X years
Went home sleep sleep sleep and was late for the anyhow art item but i think it was rather okay since im not dancing for it =p Went alyssa house and had STEAMBOAT!!! WOO,i hope i can go over everyday,there's good food and many many tidbits whenever i go =)
Played a bit of mahjong,a bit of bridge and a bit of dai di and a lot of SLAM JACK!!! RAWR, it's so PAIN, it's especially so when people just stick their hands in thru brute force =( Nevertheless, it was kinda fun =)
The purpose of the stay over is to watch the soccer match LIVERPOOL VS PORTO, but everyone ended up sleeping waiting for the match to start. Only Dallan and me survived thru the match. I don't really watch soccer as everyone knows but it was kinda interesting =) But i must admit i felt like sleeping when the score is 1-1 but it got kinda exciting after liverpool start scoring =p
Slept a bit then woke up for breakfast (omg,i actually typed dinner in the first place) then received words that they need more people at their workplace so i went with the gang to work at raffle marina yacht club,rather boring when the guests has yet to arrive but it got all busy when the guest arrived =p Ate the leftover that we purposely kept and it was superlicious =)
Chiong-ed to PA but realise I was rather useless,refused to think also, I'm brain dead -.-

Friday, slept til 2 then stone and stone til I realise I was late so start packing up and left to meet winston at redhill mrt.Went to pasir ris and to our surprise they are still there waiting, so winston and me went inside white sand to buy present and food,yumyum =) I ate like... two fried squid stick,one curry puff from on chang kee and two cheeseburger and one packet of rice =p Played some game and was really tired doing the thinking =p pai-ed a bit of our item again then went bridging and becos of my growling stomach,i actually shouted " I'm willing to marry any girl who cook me noodle now" -.-
Zi xiang and gang start drinking and I decided to try out the vodka since I never tried b4, i don't really drink cos I hate red wine white wine,beer stout and etc but i think that vodka is actually quite nice =p a bit spicy and keeps you warm. Had some crap talk and went to sleep, kept checking the time to make sure i dun overslept and me and bin chiong-ed all the way to NJ, took bus to white sand and bought bread then took mrt to newton. Both of us had stomachache so we ran to the handicapped toilet but !!!! IT'S LOCKED!!! Immediately took a cab to school and i paid for it -.- and we weren't late!!! I even msged desmond telling him we will be late. Anyway, went straight to the first level toilet after greeting su lao and had a heavenly time until ...... THEY SPREADED THE INSECT KILLING SMOKE INTO THE TOILET. Obviously, it's an attempted assaination and we escaped barely with our lives hanging on the edge =(
OM was late again, ddi you guys notice he was late only when mr tay was the in charge? HMMMMM.....
Anyway,ended up using the gym and it really sucks, guo something like the san guan but it was much worse since the gym was so long =( During practice,really felt like puking because of the indigestion i think. The dance is not finished yet but we will finish it before new year start =p
Went to eat then went home and slept, told my mom to wake me up at 3 but when she come to wake me,i keep singing "再给我两分钟" to her. Got her really pissed cause not first time le =p SORRY MUM
Overslept so washed up and chiong-ed back to the camp,bought a double cheeseburger on the way =p They finished al their game already by the time we are back. Played basketball and it really sucks,I mean the basketball court,so slippery that I fall,three abrasions,one really big one near my butt, the bone at my hip hurts a lot,my foot also =( Because of that,felt really listless the whole day,worse of all,I help to start fire and bbq but I ONLY ATE ONE SATAY!!! Those who get to eat wifout doing anything,stop complaining b4 i stuff the satay stick into your butt and give you a painful 千年杀. Rawr,lazy to elaborate much so we slept and went PA the next day. Went white sand and eat but before that,we were given two choices on how to go PA but it was literally a scam by some brainless people.
Choice 1: Take mrt to PA and we buy prata to eat at PA
Choice 2:Eat at white sand and take a bus to PA
We were forced to take choice 2 wifout tired minds aren't we?
The bus was stuffy,crowded,hot,and worse of all,the ride took one hour 30 minutes!!!
ROAR,it's more than RAWR can decribe,we could have reach PA eons ago if we take mrt.
Practise and practise after that,doesn't even get to rest

Monday,original plan was
Zhi peng board 196 and call me
I board the same 196 and call daryl
Daryl board the same bus and call wei hong
Result is, Zhi peng told me he not going,so i decided to sleep more
Kee Lui overslept,Daryl overslept,Wei hong wake up early and is pissed off,Zhi Peng is error 404,website CANNOT BE FOUND,I think the season for roast pig is here ....

Tot I was late but practice start late too,what is the whole world doing -.- Decided to slack after teaching lion dance for a while then had a really hectic day at PA,no elaboration =p
I'm tired so I shall skip the details,hahaz,think I will just sleep after this post,have to wake up early to meet daryl and wei hong to have yet another hectic day tmr(later)

LIN YANJIA,you rox,thx for the song =)

2007-11-28T15:37:00.000+08:00

Gosh,I cannot believe i got wet walking under covered walkway home. Thank goodness it just started raining. Although the rain just started, it was extremely heavy and the designer for the ABC market realy sucks,there's two stream of water from the side splashing directly at the entrance -.- As I walked home,the area of ground (higher ground) covered by water kept increasing,imagine the effect,the water spreading and along wif it there's dry leaves floating in.
The worse is.... the road downhill is flooded!!! luckily the flood just started and it's at shin level,the last flood reach my knee. Took the lift uphill and the road is also slightly flooded and the cover walkway prove to be TOTALLY useless.Wad's worse,the material of the ground sucks,i kept slipping due to my lousy slippers and have to hug every pillar that came into the picture. Finally made it to my block and when i tot it was safe,i took one step into the lift and nearly slipped -.- However,i found out that the lao fu zi comic i read made some sense,people will curse and swear while travelling in heavy rain but when you are at home,you felt so comfortable and sleepy becos of the rain =p

2007-11-26T12:25:00.000+08:00

Baah,had a very very weird dream.It start or rather from wad i can remember,it start by seeing wah chun with three big artificial flowers,purple black in colour,and they look like origimi,then han xie and desmond helped him hold one each. Then I boarded this SBS bus and it was supposed to be a normal bus but it has this monster synthesis corner ( too much game huh?) The funny part came.Was at this shopping centre that look like bugis junction then beside it was this two storey shopping centre and behind it got those residential block like that in compass point.Then shibinn took this huge thing that has a winged shape stuff on it then he run and run and flew and did a somersault in the air and land beside the shopping centre. Then next came yihang the strong boy,he also did a somersault but he flew over the shopping centre and flew into the residential block.There was a huge bang and there were a lot of dust.However,being the strong boy,he walked out on top of the shopping centre unscarred and said he will catch us if we flew too high. Next came dallan and he was a complete loser. He left the ground for 1 sec and ran straight into the shopping centre. Then came my turn and i ran wif all my might but b4 i gather enough velocity to take off,two legs came out and tripped me!!! Countless tries were given but it was all futile so i gave up in the end... then the scene skipped to some rooftop where everyone was chatting.Oh,did i mention from the shopping centre part,everyone at PA was around =p

2007-11-26T00:19:00.000+08:00

Gosh,I'm damn tired,not only has trouble lifting my arm now but my thighs feel so heavy,really feel like skipping the pt session tmr =p
BUT... no matter what,I'm gonna drag this tired body here and offer my deepest condolence to mr stephen loh's kins and wish that he is able to rest in peace. Although he taught me for a mere 5 months and can get slightly naggy at times but he was really a very nice teacher. He was my PE teacher and unlike any other PE teachers,he did not just heck care everything and safety is always a must in his dictionary,that was once there was a lightning alert but other Pe teachers allowed their students to continue playing in the courts but he firmly insist that we stay indoor. What an irony,such a teacher who is always concerned about safety was cruelly taken away because of a lack in safety precaution. Other than that,he taught me a lot regarding sports and training like the different type of intensity of training which i bet other PE teachers never bother to do.
I just received this email

From:
Xinying Ke

"hi kee lui, i'm a journalist from shin min daily news, please email me or call me at 96466702 to tell me more about your teacher mr stephen loh, thanks. "

I know i will just stutter or rawr rawr if i call but if any journalist happen to see this,feel free to use wadever information here and my name.

Anyway,when weihong msg me that my teacher was found,I tot he was alright but when i reach home and ask my dad bout it,he answered 找到了 but added a 真可怜.It was then when i realised of his mishap.

It was really a pity,please rest in peace

life is fragile,the past has passed and the future has yet to come so cherish the present and whatever that it offer you

2007-11-25T11:17:00.000+08:00

Yesterday was such a tiring day,didn't sleep much the night b4 and woke up early to go NJ for practice. The remote control for our new cd player is so cool,it could work from a range of three badminton court length (width wise) Practice is so tiring,either it is or i have not been doing much ever since sec 4 =p Had to drink three bottle of 100 plus to constantly replenish the sweat i lost. Mrs Ong fetched me and shibinn to clementi and we walked to nan hua,argghh,is that fringe really so important? I think it look really unglam. Worse still,a promise is a promise,yes,you can take the loopholes of mere words and make use of it but this show just how much respect you give laoshi,how much intergrity you have.zzz,wad a jerk.
Went to dallan house wif ... and ... ,lolz Played two round of dota with his com and cooked some soup then left. Went all the way to suntec to buy Royce's chocolate,stupid dallan,make me walk so much -.- Was a bit late for our practice but doesn't really matter to me since im not dancing =p Finally saw weihong yesterday
Those crazy pig then suggest going to west coast RC to play pool when we left PA at 11 plus??? That zi xiang start drinking heinenken all of a sudden -.- Was really tiring since we played til 3 plus and i reached home at 3.45
Sia la,at first i tot shibinn was mistaken but I saw the newspaper and it was really my PE teacher mr stephen loh,can't believe someone as fit as him... Just hope he's okay

2007-11-20T14:43:00.001+08:00

Hahaz,finally cleared some doubts in my mind,really sorry to have to anger someone further in the process,I apologise for all the trouble i had caused.
Anyway, went over to the airport yesterday night to stay over and welcome the china people back. Their flight got delayed by 2 hours and reach slightly later than 7 am. Haiz,actually if that's the case we had no need to stay over at all -.- Reached the airport at 11 and start walking around the airport and finally settled at peopeyes again and note that there is only two of us there,dallan and me.(shibin couldn't come) Shared a meal and went off to other place to chat.Daryl took a long time to reach and it was 1.30 by the time he do so and we has to help him pay a bit of his cabfare =p His ATM card couldn't be read by the taxis somehow. Went to Coffee Bean,ordered something and lie comfortably on their couches(maybe not really that comfortable)
We rested till 5 am b4 we went to check on their arrival timing again and it has been changed to 6.58!!! Arggghh,we were too lazy to go back to Coffee Bean so stone at the hard rock chairs till then. Eee,got one suspicious looking uncle came over and sit beside dallan.At first I thought he was one of the parents here to fetch the china people cause he was chatting with dallan and took dallan's leg and put on his lap and helped him massage. Later dallan told me he claimed to be a doctor and blah blah blah. I suspect he's just another old gay wanna take advantage of us =p
They took ridiculously long after their flight arrived to come out but it's okay since they were buying something =) Omg,peixuan became an aunt already. Imagine in ten years time the newborn baby is taller than his aunt =p Hahaz,after that,we were sent to clementi by alyssa's mom who is as talkative as ever =p Lolz,I really like Mr Loh Leong Beng more than Mr Foo Suan Fong but parents seem to have differed opinion -.-
Quickly finished my breakfast and went home to sleep all the way till now =p Anyway,although the toilet paper in the airport is better than my tissue paper at home but I love my bathroom,my smelly bedroom and my entire HOME X)
OH,and i'm addicted to the song 最长的电影,listened to it more than 4o times thru out my airport stay =)
I'm really sorry to have to do something to test out some reactions but it wasn't done purposely to provoke you
This will be the last time such craps will surface on your monitor and may the good speed be with you
Sorry =p

2007-11-19T20:16:00.000+08:00

Hahaz,although i doubt nobody give this a damn but for those who wish to join our holiday practice on wednesday, the time has been changed,it's now 12.30 to 4.30 and our dear wang laoban will be coming too =)

2007-11-19T10:06:00.000+08:00

Geez,all tha talk about having no more sleepless night -.-
My thought drifts on and on yesterday night and end up with SYF and was unable to go to sleep ever since then. SYF is the only thing that make me feels that I want to have the power to turn back time. It makes me wonder wad is SYF to those who had already stopped dancing for example kin phang,just an example =p Izzit a beautiful journey(filled with blood and blister) that will be forever etched in their mind or merely an event that happened in the past? I wonder whether in the distant future,this would happen to me too when i stopped dancing. Will I turn into a money rolling machine whose only task is to generate money for my family or will I be able to hold onto this passion forever. A lot of people may not like zhongyi but i actually quite admire his passion.Despite of holding on to a tedious and monotonous work like accounting,he is still able to dedicate his remaining time to his passion.Truly admirable =)
However,I hate those who sits around all day and act like some bigshots. It's true laoshi said we don't need to have superb jibengong but isn't it a basic to try to improve yourself? Wouldn't it be great if all of us have better jibengong and laoshi can stop worrying about the difficulty of the steps?
Anyway, boring television shows actually serve a purpose. I was so tired watching that monotonous drama with my mom that I nearly fell asleep on the sofa and managed to get back to sleep.Woke up ridiculously early in the morning but refused to go down to the market for breakfast =p Gonna have dance later and I have seriously no idea wad to do for the CNY dance,maybe i shall go ask laoshi for a music that is very cheeky and suitable for chinese dance -.-
Gonna stay over in the airport tonight,dallan's crazy idea to welcome the china people back at 5 am tmr -.-

就算放开但能不能别没收我的爱
当作我最后才明白

2007-11-18T21:48:00.000+08:00

Hmmm,managed to make myself feel better already,no more sleepless night =)
Sometimes life a really a joke,unfathomable...
You can used to chat wif this person til late night or msg non-stop yet now,you can act as though both of you are complete stranger.I didn't even dare to look at her eyes to eyes now,fearing that my pressence will be an irritant.
People do change but not always for the better and the power of love and friendship always played a large part in this.A rotten apple can really corrupt the batch of apples. We can be good friends with junior X,Y or Z in the past but right now,they are nothing more than a nuisance in the eyes. It's really sad when you pinned so much hope into them yet they turn out to be the opposite of what you want. Although i never voice it out in the past,i never really liked this guy and it turn out my intuition is correct. Now you guys see why i oppose him suceeding the position of chairman? He's just a jerk.
I do not know where the road of life,veiled in fog will take me next
I only know that my friends will be there with me

2007-11-17T14:29:00.000+08:00

Zzz,felt extremely retard after the emo post yesterday night.
Thank you yan jia for the enlightenment =) Felt much better,actually,all i hope now is to clear my doubt about some issue =)
Oh ya,my brother would be bringing his DS to camp =(((

2007-11-14T23:46:00.000+08:00

Argghh,I'm 'lifeless' slept play eat and PRACTISE -.-
Anyway,watched the news and the first thing i tot of is to end my DotA match and go onto MSN but the moment I do so,i saw the personal msg and felt very retarded if I was gonna do wad I intended to do.So weird if I was going to act like" Hey did you watch the news blah blah blah" when you know he or seh already know wad you are gonna say -.-
Rawr,turning emo like yihang.
Btw,I'm too lazy to do this person by person and I doubt most people will want to join the muggers so I just gonna post this up here.
For those who completed their O's this year and is interested in going NJ and at the same time join our chinese dance,we welcome you to join us for practice at 21st Nov.
Practice starts at 9.30 and end around noon time unless some mad people decided to be funny.
If interested,please sms me so that I can bring you guys there.
TEO JUN HE,it's compulsory for you =p

2007-11-14T15:06:00.000+08:00

Arrgghhh,I feel like gouging my pair of eyes out,stop staring!!!
Arrgghhh,I feel like cutting my neck off,stop turning in that direction!!!
Arrgghhh,I feel like disconnecting my brain off,stop thinking about that!!!

2007-11-11T00:54:00.000+08:00

Whee,other than peeling brownish skin which look like potato skin,I now have swollen knee cap =(
It has been extremely hectic since the dance chalet,my schedule is packed full with practices the following week and I didn't have enough rest recently to restore my vitality.....
Let's see,tmr got PA,monday got mindef at nan hua,tuesday got media brief rehearsal,wednesday got practices at school and media brief then thrusday and friday got full day of practices at RV,saturday practices at school,then whee PA again and etc etc etc
I shall take back wad i said earlier,I have absolutely no time to rest =( I missed my bed and I know it missed me too =((
Anyway,had practices in the morning and I totally lack the vitality to do much,then halfway thru my er ming problem come back to haunt me again.Luckily it stopped after some rest =) The actions are all.... toturous..... I shall name the dance A Thousand Year of Pain =p Went straight home and took a nap before departing to meet daryl and nicholas.Went to the airport to send them off and had popeyes =)
Yea!!! I'm so clever.Set 1,$6.45,2 piece chicken with 1 side 1 drink,upsize set 1,$1,large drink and additional side.Set 3,$13.95,4 piece chicken with 3 side 2 drink. So in other word,by buying two set 1 and upsizing up of em,you can get exactly everything in set 3($13.95) with an upsized drink for just $13.90!!!
Clever eh?I mean the person who created this menu... Hahaz,but like wad daryl said,all they care is you are buying from them -.-
Took turn with tian jun's little brother to play nicholas PSP,tried our best to defeat the semi-final which daryl and nicholas failed to do so and im so so so close =( Managed to win the second match after deuce 5 but lost the third after deuce 2 = ( So in the end,the little boy did wad we could not -.-
It was rather late and end up taking cab with two Pe teacher( I know one of em is Mr Quek) and nicholas..
Tmr have PA and they gonna pai Anyhow Art... Haven't tot of anything of wad to do yet for our item and laoshi keep stressing me =( Waaah,Im gonna go boom baaah le =p

2007-11-07T23:31:00.000+08:00

sigh,i guess i must have been a bear my previous life,felt so listless though it's holiday,have the feeling that I am hibernating thru this winter -.-
I think the poison of Singapore educational system has gotten into me,I start to feel nothing toward holiday now,I actually felt that the life in holiday is worse than schooldays... And... I actually felt guilty for not doing any work during holiday,isn't that supposed to be normal? So why am i guilty conscious?
Anyway, it has been crazy ever since last week.OP OP and more OP,i actually feel that the preparation made no difference,no improvement -.- The craziest decision is to go to the dance chalet and not sleep for the second night... Chalet was okay,but it can be more okay if those who had a part in renting the bike could pay me the money =p The mahjong session was crazy =)
Anyway,wad's so crazy about it? The third day of the chalet was my OP exams. Went to board the bus with yi hang and realise we were too early. After reaching pasir ris mrt,took our own sweet time and had mac for breakfast.Tried to chiong down but at newton mrt,i couldn't tahan the stomachache any longer and for a moment,i tot it's the end of the world. I couldn't find the toilet.... If I were to become prime minister of Singapore,the first agenda on my list has changed. I would definitely make sure that there is a toilet every 500m. Curse those underground mrt station wifout any toilet =( Anyway,was supposed to report to school at 8.30 and i managed to find a toilet for disabled people above the mrt station at 8.20 =) Well,i felt crippled and disabled with all that stomachache so no harm using disabled toilet right? Decided to hail a cab although i know i was already late,the cab uncle was shocked to hear that i had to report for exams at 8.30 since i board his cab on 8.29 -.- Luckily,i was only reporting for audience duty =) Audience duty was a toture, the effort to keep my eyes open with regard to time is defintely 1000000th order ( meaning effort = time to power of 1000000 multiply by k constant) .
The presentation was over in an instant and off i went to nan hua to watch their mindef practice.Had a hard time keeping my eyes open while talking to laoshi bout some stuff and apparently,i fell asleep while they are having their break and no one bother to wake me up to greet laoshi when their practice end =( Went clementi and ate tang yuan,fatigue overcame me and i went home straight after that.Sleep from 7 pm to 10 am, nothing felt better than that.Went back to sleep after lunch which is 1pm to 6pm,in other words,i nearly slept for 24 hours...
Sunday had practice at PA,i dun get it,why everyone so unwilling to lian,i actually get di siaoed for doing wad laoshi asked us to do? Get a look at laoshi face leh,it's blacker than charcoal le =( Anyway,went sentosa for class outing and those mad goon start drinking early morning -.- My shoulder got burnt but it was really painful.
Then tuesday and wednesday dance camp at NJ,i really hate camp,chalet is still okay. That's because i absolutely love my bed =)))
BTW..... i'm really free this holiday,every monday,tuesday,thursday,friday,saturday afternoon of nov is free and december is more free =) Get the hint???

2007-10-24T22:41:00.000+08:00

Hahaz,i know i'm a bit slow but I got back my results!!! WOOHOO
Not that it is very good but... it's like a load off the mind finally =)
my results sucks so dun ask,like secondary school, i have to balance them equally =(
Hahaz,now the only thing left is PW,to explain my situation,i can say that my hit point has left only 5% after promos and this 5% might not sustain me thru this period til OP if i will to on BURST MODE -.- hahaz,to put it simply,I'm too tired to do anything now...
YET i'm not in the mood to enjoy life yet,this sucks,it really =(((
RAWR,and i havent had any plan for this holiday yet,I don't want to spend it rotting at home!!!

2007-10-16T00:28:00.000+08:00

Oh my,just watched 世界一周,now there exist a bulletproof vest for military's dog and dog now know how to jump down from helicopter into water to save people le.BUT,the most impt part is that people in India actually poke a three pronged spear at those laoshu and after that they remove their skins*ouch and ummm,eat them... Hahaz,it's kinda cruel right? Anyway,speaking about animal,people persceptive of animal seem to have changed... This experiment have been done be zhirui on one fine morning.If I tell you the word chicken,what will be the first image that will come into your mind? Results have shown that the first image that will come into people mind now is a plate of CHICKEN RICE!!! The word chicken no longer signifies an animal but has etched a deep image of a plate of chicken rice into our brain.To DotA players, chicken signifies a carrier,an item carrier -.- Wad has the world become??? Lolz
There's school tmr... It's truly very boring in school now but it's all the same at home =( Qihui asked me whether I missed nan hua,of course i do.I actually look forward to going to school when i was in nan hua,even in the O lv period,I quite enjoy my days in that classroom.At least we have a classroom we can truly call our classroom.Although pandian's lesson always seems to be a lullaby but I enjoy his accent =p Mdm Sia's purple lipstick rox my days and of course,Ms Chan MeiYi threats to throw her high heels,I miss it =p OH,and i miss the days when we bought rations to get ready for chinese lesson.We were really bad to ye laoshi though,always locking her out of the classroom and very deliberately shows that we are sleeping =( Wad's more,dance has become boring.I really dun get youngsters nowaday.They spent their time talking bad about people,planning on how to skip warm up and practices and they think that this kind of defiance is actually cool.Yes,my batch's people may go around telling others about our atrocious deed in nan hua but i guess people(juniors) misinterprete the msg behind.We may cause a lot of troubles for everyone but we still did our warm ups,our san guan and when we lian we really lian.Wad's special is... quite hard to describe but we added some vibrancy to those stuffs.Those kinds of stuff that disturb others -.- Or some internal jokes... I still remember some stuff like kin phang's experiment on the the flying foam box machine.Some stupid experiment where we slide the foam box down the triangle and try to load as many people as possible and land safely -.- I'm surprised how no one got injured.So,hopefully the juniors now actually stop misunderstanding our meaning of defiance =)

2007-10-15T01:12:00.000+08:00

Hahaz,this blog had been quite dead for seom time -.-
Anyway,it's not that I do not have the time but I jsut seems too lazy and distracted to do it. Oh ya,did I mention that people can no longer bring PSP and NDS into army camp because they contain data storage and transfer functions... Now,now,the main point is,my brother's NDS is totally mine to command!!! Well,it distracts me quite a lot recently,played during bus ride,played during lecture and even play while i'm at home,isn't that simply wonderful??? And becos of that excessive gaming,i completed most of the games that i am interested in -.- Getting sort of bored becos of that but... a few more months and all the games i would like to play would be released!!! Hahaz,spent most time on digimon although the gameplay sucks,dun really need much intelligence except for some planning before hand for the DNA digivolve.Alright,Digimon World 1 which is released in PS 1 has the best gameplay ever, those digimons are much more realistic in the sense that they got a lifespan so mindless gaming actually won't work.World 2 was okay and World 3 was sick,training and more training... World 4 is a disaster,having an Agumon running around and smashing with a broadsword can let you beat the final boss -.- Nevertheless,this game revived my passion in digimon.To justify the impact of the anime digimon on human society... First of all,the creative digivolution improve the visual impacts in children and allow them to familiarise themselves with animals and demons in legend as many digimon names are based on that( TO know more about demon and legends,there is a specific company which all games revolve around demon and world destruction has almost all demons and gods in legend and the best thing is you can raise those monsters =p).Next digimon emphasize on the core value of humans like the first series which has the seven different crest,Courage for Agumon,Kindness for Gabumon, Wisdom for Tentomon, Love for Piyomon, Palmon(forgotten but wad kind of values can that bimbo have?), Ikakkumon(forgotten,which kind of value can the bimbo's boy fren have -.-) and hope for patamon,lolz.AND,hatred will lead to self destruction,agumon to skullgrey in series one,wargrowlmon to megidramon in series three and shinegrey to shinegrey ruined mode in series five.Thirdly,digimon,unlike pokemon can actually degenerate back to thier rookie or child level and AH HA,human can degenrate if you dun use ur brain(My Pw teacher would say it's a weak argument and ask for substantiation -.-) The most impt factors is,it actually create a healthy habit in children who grow up watching digimon as we MUST wake up at 9 to catch the show every sunday(there's no youtube in the past) Anyway,digimon rox compared to pokemon as they are much cooler,many of em actually have human forms. My favourites are of course Gallantmon Crimson Mode,Omnimon and Beelzemon Burst Mode(Only dark type I liked) Anyway,it made me wonder most of the powerful digimon have close to human form then i remembered that in dragon warrior monster,the dragon lord actually mention that all monster actually yearn toward human form as the ultimate form.And the slime in the story actually have the ultimate move of transforming into a human =)
Tsssk,non-digimon fans must be crying out there but this actually justify my reasons for not making the effort to update thsi blog,lolz.I spent the time completing series 5 and all the movies.

Back to my life,promos.... It's half a disaster as I expected my results to be extremely extreme... Lolz. Math and Physics was easy but there was some silly mistake in physics.Chem is horribly done and ECons is sort of like an unknown factors.Well,after all these years of studying,I quite realised this.My character makes me wanna boast of my results to people,I had tried hard but it's hard to curb sometimes.Next,I always tell people i dun study.People might think this is over-complacency but i doubt so.I think it's actually a lack of self confidence.The act of telling people that i havent study actually had two probability.If I do well,then it will be much to boast of as someone who havent study actually can do well.If I don't do well,I can actually blame it on not studying and not the lack of intelligence to comprehend those actions.These kind of actions to back yourself up actually shows that I have no confidence in scoring well.Nobody other than myself could be blamed for not studying.Given the path to choose,I chose not to study and a bad results would just be my rewards for it.
Like wad Gai say in Naruto,Some are born a genius but Lee you are born a genius,you are a genius of hardwork.Some people needs more effort in understanding and you cannot call them stupid,they are willing to fork out more time and is able to concentrate on their work for a much longer time like Lee but there are also people who are born with the ability to process information much faster but very often,these people lack the drive to actually complete their homework properly or study for long period of time.Each has their pros and cons and none are better.So,using less time to study and get the same results is actually nothing to be proud of.
I had been trying to convince myself and really hope to stop myself from hinting people that i got good results(provided that it's good) Really thankful to all around me to have to sometimes hear the same words which is often boasting several times =(((
Anyway,other than that,I had been trying to stop scolding vulgarities but sometimes they would still slip frmo my mouth.Most of the time,those vulgarities actually slipped from my hand as it seems all too convenient to type the F word when you got killed in a game.Also,girls with vulgarities all over is the worst. There was once I was eating instant noodle outside the seven eleven at redhill mrt when there was a group of teenagers around my age there.They were loud and crude and the loudest was actually a girl.Don't know wad luck has hit me then.Those hooligans actually came to me and disturbed me.One of the girl actually scolded me for eating instant noodle for no particular reasons -.-
RAWR,don't feel like doing any work now,isn't exams supposed to be over?JC rox man =(

2007-09-24T22:28:00.000+08:00

Man.... I'm hopeless,Someone please save me.... wednesday is the start of promos and I haven't started on my revision
STUPID comics,STUPID Warcraft,STUPID brother who lures me over with his STUPID NINTENDO DOUBLE SCREEN =(((( I'm a goner for Econs,super potential U grade student and has not been taking down any notes at all,how do I answer questions for Market Structure and Market Failure??? Haven't got any definitions thru my thick skull so far.. FROM NOW ON,screw my mangas,screw my WARCRAFT and... don't need to screw my brother since he went back to camp -.- Oh ya,he gonna screw himself since he's taking the sergeant course and no matter what,don't EVER be a sergeant cos you always stuck in between =p MUG GO MUG,kee lui,you can do it,huat arh!!!

2007-09-10T23:22:00.000+08:00

Holidays end in a blink and now promos are coming -.-
After practising at PA yesterday,the first thing I did was to play with LoserDallan and FeederBin and JokerRawr(me) was owned for three rounds.thus we decided to pay one more game which last two hours plus and finally won -.- After bathing,it was already 3am!!! Decided to pack my table and notes before school start and it take me more than half a hour.Amidst the packing,i open my drawer and found those sentimental stuff given to me by friends or bought by myself.There were things like cards,small notes,some chains,necklace,tags used in performance and omgosh,I found a condom -.- Don't xiang wai wai okay?Si aun gave everyone of us a condom last year for valentines?Lolz.However,there were somethings that i couldn't find,the brotherhood necklace wasn't there,I must have misplace it somewhere =( Sorry,Bratjas(kyodai) =p Remember the 'mouse' tag we made last year at chinatown,all of us went for the same colour design,I remember it was a black base with a white background and lime green words.Told px recently that I made an extra one when we made ours and I have to lie for losing my keys and ran back to get it done,then when we went back to collect the tags,I have to secretly slipped it in my pocket =p Sometimes,I cannot help but wonder wad happen to that tag that i gave out,was it smashed to pieces in anger or stash in the darkest corner or the drawer?
Had a hard time sleeping becos I start thinking about the times in nan hua,the wonerful time =) Keep checking my handphone for time and the last i remembered is 4.30 am =p Slept for only one and a half hour -.-
Anyway,I know some people out there in my JC will start complaining that I value nan hua more than my current school and placing my emphasis wrongly. You do not know me well and please do not judge me by wad i say cos most of the time i'm crapping.Since you do not know me well,please keep ur mouth shut,it really stinks sometimes -.- I know wad i'm doing and i don't like doing or organising things that i predict is futile and how you expect me to explain how it's futile thru mere words?I just know that it wouldn't work out,furthermore,a guy like me have no interest in making cards and preparing presents.I don't need to oversee every little single things u guys do,u just have to keep me informed and to others,you don't need to gather every single beings to do a single stuff,how can you gather everyone when the relay is not even passed down properly?Instead,choosing who you want to do it and speaking to the person personally thru the phone to ask them to do it will yield a better effect. And please,mind your mouths,try me insulting your whole life til it's like you shouldn't have live,you wouldn't like it right?I hate people who judge by looks,behaviour as such.Even worse,backstab your friends whom you known so long,insulting them.Stop complaining and get a life.

2007-09-07T02:36:00.000+08:00

Oh yea,my com is finally back and fighting strong as usual =)))
Don't really know wad happen but the CPU just seems to fail to send any signal to the monitor but it has been resolved =)) for a cheapie price of 30 bucks =p
Tot that it could help me in mugging if the com is down but it's just seems to backfire.Sitting in front of the com and drinking a cup of hot milo seems to make me mug harder than having no proper table to do so -.- Anyway,It must be a sign from GOD(buhdda or whoever is the true god if it exist -.-) to tell me that i should start studying.This wasn't the first sign,the first was when all my handphone game got miraculously deleted,depriving me of the chance to have fun with my pathetic phone during lectures and tutorials.the second is of course the breakdown of my com which has been resolved using a bit of hardwork (carrying the CPU down the hill for repair) and some money -.- Anyway,days wifout the com is dull and boring,people must be wondering why the ever online keelui not online anymore -.- IVYSOHKAIYU must be one of em =p Btw,i slept for 18 hours yesterday becos my com was not there to provide the anti gravitational pull from my bed -.- I wake up and ten to eat coco crunch,sleep and wake up again at 1 to eat my instant noodle,sleep all the way til my mom wake me up for dinner,slept til supper -.-
Don't have much to blog bout my life so off i go to milo making =p

2007-08-28T18:41:00.000+08:00

I'M PISSED,BLOODY BITCH,BE THANKFUL YOU ARE A GIRL >.<

Where is my home?

2007-08-26T23:46:00.000+08:00

Nothing much but endless sleeping had been done in school recently.Open House is over and not much to be said.I actually expected more dancers I knew to be there but o well -.- Next is colours award but don't expect much of the food too.
Lazily dragged myself out of the house today to meet shibin and gang.Went to NDP thank you dinner and had some fun i guess.The MC disturbed laoshi and is lucky he got out of it alive =p Ginette could have probably grabbed near to one grand worth of electronics lor,still blame us for not telling her the price beforehand,
Anyway,reached cineleisure at 4 to discuss bout DI,although i don't know wad their final decision is,the four of us voted for it to close down.We had not much choice.Rather than struggle in torment to keep it alive,I rather end the pain.So,guys,this is the official close down of DI,don't really know how to phrase it but... This is the end of my three year journey with DI,it might be longer for others and for laoshi,it must be a painful decision.The corruption must be stopped at the root and we have no choice but to uproot everything.Whether there will be a revival of DI i do not know.I do not know how to continue either,just hope to keep myself from rusting in the time being....

那阳光　碎裂在熟悉场景　好安静
一个人　能背多少的往事　真不轻
谁的笑　谁的温暖的手心　我著迷
伤痕好像都变成　了曾经
全剧终　看见满场空座椅　灯亮起
这故事　好像真实又象虚幻的情境
只是那　好不容易被说服　的自己
藉口又顶不住懊恼的侵袭
好后悔　好伤心　想重来　行不行
再一次　我就不会走向这样的结局
好后悔　好伤心　谁把我　放回去
我愿意　付出所有来换一个时光机
对不起　独自回荡在空气　没人听
最后又是孤单　到天明
真的痛　总是来的很轻盈　没声音
从背后　慢慢缓缓抱著我　就像你
你和我　还有很多的地方　还没去
为何留我荒唐的坐在这里
好后悔　好伤心　想重来　行不行
再一次　我就不会走向这样的结局
好后悔　好伤心　谁把我　放回去
我愿意　付出所有来换一个时光机
对不起　独自回荡在空气　没人听
最后又是孤单　到天明
(最后又是孤单　到天明)

2007-08-23T00:31:00.000+08:00

Someone save me please.This has really become a monotonous life. Here's my schedule.
Wake up at 6. reached school at 7. Slacked at canteen til 7.40. sleep in lectures. Pretend to be doing my stuff or rather pretend to did my stuff in tutorials. CHIONG canteen to avoid the queue. Avoid buying food from snack store(Source of stomachache). CHIONG toilet(5 times today). CHIONG home straight after school. Switch on my com and..... sleep.... all the way to 7 or 8 p.m. Wake up and used com,playing pokemon recently.Pokemon FireRed team: Charizard,Venusaur,Vaporean,MewTwo,Heracross,Tyranitar =))) Pokemon Silver Team: Lugia,Ho-oh,Dragonite,Tyranitar,MewTwo,sixth member depends.Silver all Lv 100 pokedex 250/251 Any glitches to catch Celebi? Pondering whether to buy Nintendo DS. My brother bought one but he bringing to camp to play -.- Anyway,to continue my monotonous life... Played,played,played to around 2 or 3,watching anime at 12(56 channel) then random taiwanese entertainment show. THEN SLEEP.basically,in short forms,eat,go school sleep,eat,go toilet,go classes sleep,eat lunch,chiong toilet,sleep again in classes,chiong home sleep,use com,watch tv,sleep. WHERE IS MY LIFE?
Btw,having diarhoea recently,must be that la jiao uncle fault again =( Went to toilet halfway thru assembly.Went to toilet at lab block Lv2 but when i open the door.... I saw a girl!!! WAAHHH,turned and look at the sign at the door,it's blue leh,no skirt,then take another look inside toilet,got the boys always used de thing leh,then the cubicle door open and another girl(a FATSO) appears.I couldn't think so much as I was in a rush so chiong to Lv4 toilet and NO TOILEt PAPER??? Bo Bian so go to the staff toilet,WAD THE?NO LOCK??? Why must this always happen to me?Everything i need a toilet badly,I just couldn't seem to find one.I MUST BREAK THE TOILET CURSE.Another thing that got to do wif toilet happen b4 but it's very sia suay so i shall not tell you all,THIS is my ~ Secret ~

2007-08-15T23:16:00.000+08:00

School is tedious, b4 finishing this assignment, the next will pop up like the rate pop up appears in a spyware infested computer -.- Spent loads of time doing the WR yesterday. Our five man team is reduced to a pitiful three man and one of those three proved to be rather useless(disgrace to his religion) Other than the piling stack of homework, I seems to develop a weird sleeping habit (I used to do afternoon nap) of sleeping after dinner or b4 dinner all the way to 9 plus in the night, sometimes, causing me to miss my dinner and had supper instead -.-
Received a weird call from some china woman but quickly explained that i'm busy and ended the call as I am doing my practical. After reading weihong's blog which refer me to another blog by Kenny Sia. His hilarious entry elaborate his encounter with chinese swindler and how he make a fool out of them. Love how he really paid the deposit which is a scam but deposited only 1 RM =))) Found another blog on his blog and girls would really love it, an online store named papergirlshop that find cute girls to model their product. Noting the prices, it is obvious that it is relatively or much cheaper than those found in the usual fashion shop which charge more than 200 bucks for a single dress on the higher end. My mom often divulge to me that the cost of production did not exceed 10 bucks normally for each dress -.- So why people pay the extra for products of the same quality? Are they simply just paying for the brand? Then this lead me who flunks Econs like as often as I eat Coco-Crunch to think of it on a economic basis. An established brand sells at such a high price yet the demand remain high. Does the demand curve just shift upwards for this brand who normally possess slight monopoly power? What is the decrease in consumer surplus and gain in producer surplus in thsi case? Is there any deadweight loss? ARGHH,all this are driving me crazy, Econs is interesting to learn but frustrating to try and answer their qns.
By the way, anyone interested to pei me watch Secret the second time?

2007-08-12T20:39:00.000+08:00

Sigh,I'm actually feeling rather emo now,I'm becoming like yi hang =( I kept thinking of the plot and scenes in Secret.First,i wonder what will happen to the others like his father,will the future(present) cease to exist or continue to run its own course?A lot of anime has this kind of plot in it and each with different theory.For dao lin yi ge ni de sheng bian qu,they explained that there are limitless dimension and they explain it with dice throwing -.- And of course,dragonball!!! When Trunks changed the past,that past and the future where he lives in sort of become two different time dimension. But this is pointless as it is impossible to return to the past =( Next,I was thinking bout the ending which is rather unclear in some sense.Can Jay be only be seen by xiaoyu?If that's the case then his love is really noble,forsaking everything for the sake of his love,risking his live in the process... If it's you,will you go on a journey of no return,where no one can see you except your beloved?Can't help but start thinking bout the past,bout dance and (my secret). Don't know what to do to help nan hua or DI but i will try my best.Was thinking whether to take up ballet like hong yeye but no one wanna pei me and i know my produtivity is rather low working alone =( I feel rather.... sad for no reason,i hope i can stay in the past forever,going to school everyday to crap and play.My world seem to be more and more isolated as time goes by,I need someone to crap with but everyone seems to be so busy with their own stuff =(

飘落后才发现这幸福的碎片要我怎么捡

2007-08-12T03:26:00.001+08:00

Although it's midnight but went to catch Secret.And don't ask about the dinner,it's a waste of time and i don't really feel full.The front row really sucks,I didn't even notice jay's face in the photo lor until shibinn told me bout it -.- I was too concentrated on xiao yu's face instead,had trouble even recognising hers thru the old photo and lousy eyes of mine.I have anticipated the movie to be an odinary love story where the girl disappear one day and jay start looking for her... Spoilt half my movie because of this so i urge all of you who havent watch the movie to stop guessing wad the secret is cos u will never guess it -.- OMG,i just realise too that one of the teacher acting in this show is jay's father,this is not a secret of course,happened across this on some website =p And if you are going to ask me bout the show i can only say 这是不能说的秘密 =) Don't really know whether it's a good movie or not but it really set me thinking but I think i know what the ending supposed to mean cause it was mentioned in the magazine that it was a happy ending =p Anyway,if anyone or teacher is going to ask me stupid question from today onward,i gonna tell them 这是不能说的秘密 =)Hahaz,enjoy some photos of secret

She's very pretty from various angle =)

最美的不是下雨天，是曾与你躲过雨的屋檐 =)

And this is the legend of where the skirt end is where the socks start?